Supporting Adult Survivors of Child or Adult Sexual Abuse in the Fellowship

Survivor Support Policy

Many survivors have an inner core of strength that has helped them endure a deeply damaging, sometimes ongoing, experience. This warrants acknowledgement and affirmation during the support process. This strength does not preclude ongoing symptoms, challenges and need for support.

Due to the abuse they have endured, survivors may experience:

  • Re-living event(s) through flashbacks/dreams/memories, memory loss, intrusive thoughts, emotional numbness, fear, post-traumatic stress syndrome (PTSD), dissociation, depersonalization;
  • Overwhelming worry, restlessness, nervousness and hypervigilance;
  • Cognitive challenges such as problems focusing, memory retention, difficulty making decisions, challenges completing tasks and assignments in school or at work;
  • Mood challenges such as overwhelming sadness, loneliness, anxiety, irritability, appetite/weight changes (clinical depression), intense feelings such as anger;
  • Self-esteem challenges such as shame, embarrassment, guilt, social isolation, difficulty making friends, feelings of worthlessness or emptiness;
  • Substance abuse, eating disorders, self-harming behaviors and suicidality;
  • Difficulty with relationships (fear of intimacy, inability to trust, sexual dysfunction, problems with spouse/family dynamics), difficulty with interpersonal communication, attachment disorders;
  • Inappropriate boundaries, risky sexual behavior and risk of revictimization;
  • Higher rates of chronic disease such as heart disease, diabetes, obesity, autoimmune diseases;
  • Being perceived as angry or aggressive while self-advocating to be heard.

Why should the fellowship provide support to survivors?

Survivors are often misunderstood and have been overlooked and shunned in the fellowship, while perpetrators have been protected, excused, and elevated to positions of trust. This bias must be recognized. One step in addressing this is to actively support survivors.

Guidelines for support will help provide consistency across regions and time.

In consideration of the above, and for the purposes of support, it is immaterial whether the survivor was abused by an individual inside or outside of this fellowship. Similarly, the level of the survivor’s participation in the fellowship should not affect support (such as currently professing or not). Christlike compassion should underpin the approach.

Recommended support for survivors

  • Acknowledge the abuse and affirm the survivor by providing opportunity for the survivor to be heard by others including those in authority, in a manner that facilitates accountability;
  • Support survivors in counselling. This includes both acknowledging that mental health and other services may be needed, and contributing funds for counselling to help the survivor establish a functional day to day life and emotional well-being. Some survivors may have health plans that cover part of this, while others may not;
  • Support survivors in social connections. This may include supporting involvement of a social worker and connecting with other survivors;
  • Support family members or others close to the survivor who may also need help to navigate survivor behaviors that can affect crucial relationships (such as parent/sibling/spouse);
  • Support during subsequent hardship. Survivors may be asked to testify in court. Legal advice and accompaniment (victim’s advocate) should be supported if this situation occurs;
  • Ensure survivors’ safety and prevent re-traumatization by removing perpetrators from contact with the survivor in meeting, public gatherings, or communication. Take care to avoid inadvertently pressuring survivors to make contact. In some healing processes, survivors may choose to make contact; in these cases interaction should be on the survivor’s terms;
  • Extra consideration may be needed for survivors who are non-English speaking, elderly, disabled or with other demographic vulnerabilities.

Considerations for worker survivors:

In most cases, when workers enter the ministry they forgo many natural securities, including money, assets such as home/vehicle/investments, and the opportunity to pursue further education or a career. This unique reality should guide the support provided to those who leave the work temporarily or permanently.

  • Open discussion to ascertain immediate needs to establish themselves first temporarily and then permanently. This may include funds for a vehicle, rent, furnishings, as well with help with finding a job;
  • Support to approach change in role in the church (communication of new role to members of fellowship, elders, local workers);
  • Follow-up needs assessment 3-6 months after initial transition. Some former workers have mentioned that after the receipt of basic needs funds, they were left adrift and felt isolated. This may be addressed by having a designated person check in periodically.

Support for survivors in other countries

We encourage extending support to survivors of abuse, no matter their country of residence. This is of a special concern given cases of abusers traveling to, or being sent to, other areas without full disclosure of their history. Language barriers and differences in cultural context may provide further opportunity for abuse to occur.

Individuals who have a history of abuse must not be moved without full disclosure.

Support for survivors in other countries should include open acknowledgement of survivors’ experience, sharing policies and lessons learned, and providing financial support for medical and counselling needs.

Anticipated challenges include varying degrees of trust in police and state authorities, and cultural differences in sexual norms and discussing the same. Individuals familiar with these complex dynamics, such as those local to a specific region, may be best equipped to navigate these challenges with full support from others.

July 2023

CSA/SA and other Abuses: Systemic Issues

The following attributes are some of the conditions that make the Friends and Workers church ripe for abuse and deception.

Historical Belief in Exclusivity: The workers and meetings represent the“Only True Ministry” and “Only True Way”.

  • The belief that the form of the church and ministry is “the Only Way” is explicitly or implicitly taught and reinforced by many workers at Gospel meetings and other gatherings such as convention. Many friends do not do their own scriptural research to test the validity of this belief.
  • Workers who believe they have been called into the Only True Ministry may submit to emotional or sexual abuse so as not to lose their “place”.
  • Ex-communication or separation from the Only True Way can be a real and powerful fear, and result in ignoring or minimizing immoral or criminal behaviors.

Culture of Secrecy: From its establishment in the late 1800’s, there have been divisions and scandals in the church.   

  • Typically doctrinal divisions and/or scandals have been ignored, diminished, or covered up because open acknowledgment of imperfections, including immoral or criminal behavior, could reduce confidence in the Only True Ministry and the Only True Way.  
  • Many F&W are ignorant or uncertain about the church’s history.

Due to a deliberate or unintentional lack of knowledge, when questioned about church history, a default position is a vague or secretive response.

This “ignorance is bliss” attitude influences their outlook on church activities and information, including CSA and SA.

Undue trust in workers. Until recently, trust in the honesty, morality, ethics and general reliability of workers, was automatic and absolute among the majority of Friends.

  • A high degree of trust is one of the most effective tools of a CSA perpetrator.

The homestay system.  Perpetrator workers know that the homestay system offers them many opportunities to groom and violate victims.  The addition of the above noted “trust factor” makes for an extremely vulnerable situation.

Unaccountability.  This historical reality is systemic among the ministry and creates an environment for many levels and areas of deception.  It is related to the One True Ministry belief.

  • Unaccountability by the ministry exists from the regular worker level up to overseers.
  • There is a general perception that ministry decisions, including financial, movement of staff, meeting selection, and other matters that affect the friends (eg baptism, divorce and/or remarriage, how CSA is dealt with), are privileged, sacrosanct and immune from review or analysis by the friends.
  • Historically, the friends rarely question teachings or decisions made by the ministry. This acceptance allows for vulnerability in church matters, including how CSA/SA is managed.
  • No accountability of the ministry allows a perfect breeding ground for corruption and deceit.

A Distinct Hierarchy

  • Male dominated culture.  CSA/SA is notably more active in male dominated cultures. Males adopt a privileged position. Immoral or unethical workers will take advantage of their systemic privilege. Friends may be intimidated by the perceived dominance and therefore ignore or minimize known abuse.
  • Two distinct groups. A commonly used phrase like “God’s people” often refers to the general congregation, not the workers. This and other delineations creates two groups/levels of organization, an imbalance of power, and implicit subservience by the Friends.
  • The uneven power system within the ministry hierarchy (male vs female, senior vs junior), has contributed to worker-to-worker abuse and at times, prevented necessary recourse.
  • Reporting. Historically, reports of CSA/SA went up through the chain of worker command rather than directly from the information source worker or friend to the authorities. This allowed the senior workers and overseers discretion in what would be reported and the outcome.

Ex-worker Raises Questions About Australia / New Zealand Overseers’ Letter

Christchurch,

Sunday July 9.

Dear Wayne,

This morning I received a letter concerning CSA which had your name, among others, at the bottom.

I acknowledge that the letter is quite well-written in the main, but it also raises serious issues. Clearly, the letter is not written or sent out in good faith, as the signatories are well aware of a person currently in the Ministry who has not been – and so far, is not being – dealt with according to the stated protocols.

I refer to Craig Janke in QLD, who very clearly falls within the scope of people who should not be attending meetings and yet is being allowed to even remain in the Ministry.

Craig was in South Australia in your time there, and you were made aware of allegations against him relating to inappropriate behaviour towards children (in fact, it seems likely that you actually knew of this before he arrived in the state). It is a known fact that you privately acknowledged that you were satisfied that the allegations against him have substance (though in a meeting of church elders in the field where Craig had been you later downplayed it and gave the impression that there was nothing in the allegations). You arranged for him to be sent back to QLD because of these matters, and I understand you made the remark that you would not have him in the ministry in your state. On his return to QLD he eventually returned to a role in the ministry and has remained there until this time. It is beyond understanding how you have dared to produce a letter which claims that you will deal with CSA matters when you are allowing this person to retain a ministry role. This is dishonest and deceitful behaviour. You need to be aware that I have begun to share these facts with everybody who raises the issue of the letter to me, and I will continue to do so.

A further matter of concern relates to the conspicuous absence of Max Goldsack’s name from the bottom of the letter, which has served to focus a spotlight on him and has caused many questions to be raised. The comment most frequently made about this is that it is likely because your overseer group are aware (as you would be) of Max’s questionable record on moral matters, including his well-known homosexual relationships. Personally, it was with jaw-dropping disbelief that I heard he was to be appointed overseer of the state of West Australia – this was an open assault on the principles of the Bible, a betrayal of the ministry and the Church, and a death-blow to the credibility of the overseer group.

These concerns are not trivial, nor may they be ignored. Please take notice that this letter will be shared, by any means, with anybody who has an interest in these matters.

Yours sincerely,

Graham Thompson


WINGS Note: The original letter from most Australian and New Zealand overseers was posted 1st July https://wingsfortruth.info/2023/07/01/australia-nz-letter-to-the-church/ WINGS is unaware of any criminal allegations against anyone mentioned in this letter.

Timeline of Decisions Pertaining to CSA made by Ray Hoffmann, Barry Barkley, and Dale Shultz

Ray Hoffmann:

Ira Hobbs: (overseer of Texas)

  • Letter sent out by Ray about Ira in May 2008
  • Ira allowed to attend meetings with children until June 2023
  • Ray sent out CSA resources in 2008. Overseers claim that they didn’t know some of the facts and are only just now learning but we know that isn’t the case.
    https://wingsfortruth.info/wp-content/uploads/2013/01/rayhoffman-2pp2.pdf
  • Ray praises Ira’s spirit and says “there are too many allegations to be dismissed and disbelieved” which were only discovered when an officer investigating put out a notice for victims to come forward. Ray only wrote this letter due to the amount of victims that came forward.
  • Jean’s story: https://wingsbts.proboards.com/thread/244/jeans-story

Leslie White: (Overseer of Colorado)

  • Ray needed Laura (rape victim) to report to the authorities before he could remove Leslie White from the work.
  • Laura raped by Leslie in 2003 at Elizabeth preps and reported in 2012 . Only then was Leslie removed from the work.
  • Ray allowed Leslie to speak in his gospel meetings in recent years until April of 2023.
  • Laura says: “From all I’ve heard Leslie has continued his behavior and because of Ray Hoffmann’s refusal to put him out of all meetings and Ray and other overseers’ refusal to write a letter and notify the church (the people) of Leslie’s behavior and lack of repentance, his behavior has been allowed to continued and his abuse of women and young girls has been enabled.”
  • “In 2012 Ray Hoffmann looked me in the eye and promised and assured me that Leslie White would never be in the work again, yet in April of 2023, 11 years later, it was discovered that Ray himself was letting Leslie speak in gospel meetings. When asked why, Ray answered; “Maybe not the wisest choice”. ” Laura.
  • Cynthia Liles (P.l) says: “I noticed online there were a couple of comments suggesting White was actually still in the work in Maine. I learned in late March or early April of 2023 that Ray Hoffmann indeed had let him back in the work by letting him speak in gospel meetings.
    This was confirmed with Ray in a phone call.”
  • https://wingsfortruth.info/2023/06/24/victims-of-leslie-white-speak-out Refer here for all of Leslie’s inappropriate behaviors. Leslie spoke very inappropriately about sexual matters in gospel meetings and engaged in numerous inappropriate behaviors. Ray moved Leslie around but never removed him from the work.
  • Ray made the comment to the mediator’s father (see Barry Barkley) “If not for the sister worker (Laura), Leslie would still be in the work.”
  • Ray has also stated (April 2023): “Well it’s tricky because a lot of times victims who come forward are mentally unstable and while we feel for them, it’s hard to know what to do.”

Barry Barkley:

Leslie White:

  • Present for orgasm comment and later denied it happened
  • Met with divorced woman and was informed of Leslie’s very inappropriate questions (wings for truth link above) and did nothing about it with a mediator present in 2009.
  • Barry later told the mediator of another report from a young sister worker that felt uncomfortable with Leslie’s comments to her in front of young brother workers.
  • Barry made multiple comments that he would not “surge ahead of God” when victim and mediator asked that Leslie White be removed from the work. Mediator warned Barry that there would be more victims
  • Mediator and her husband were removed from field email lists. Bruce Shaw eventually told them they were not welcome to take part in meetings until the mediator had sought out Leslie and forgiven him.
  • Barry was Leslie White’s overseer at the time. (IL)
  • Note: Mediator was unnamed on the victim’s letters to Leslie White, but she later posted her story on AFTT and C&C so we know she is Beth Laswell Boelter.

Dale Shultz:

Robert Corfield:

  • Dale knew of Robert’s CSA in Saskatchewan and moved him to Montana instead of removing him from the work.
  • John Foster says: “Those who also knew of Robert’s crimes and failed to report (Dale Shultz, primarily) will also likely face criminal charges. Dale was horrible to Robert’s primary victim and needs to be held accountable for that situation and many, many others he has handled horribly and with utter disdain for victims.”
  • https://wingsfortruth.info/2023/05/31/robert-corfield-circumstances/  
  • Robert Corfield’s victim recently disclosed on the Advocates for Truth FB page that he was physically assaulted by Dale for disclosing his abuse to a friend.

John VandenBerg:

Milford Town Hall: (Ray and Barry present) Rays problematic comments follow:

  • “The next person to speak stated that they wanted reassurance that all allegations would be reported and people in the area be informed.”
    The moderator tried to bring the mic to Ray Hoffmann to respond to this and Ray motioned the mic away and did not respond.
  • Ray zeroed in on one report. He painted a picture of the reporter being untrustworthy. He said “I’m not aware of anything I’ve been involved with CSA. If people can prove that I knowingly moved a perpetrator to another field I will happily step down, I will happily step down, I will go to jail, I’m not afraid of jail. I don’t think it would be wise to step down off the suggestion of one person.”
  • Ray referenced James as an overseer and that James had the last word. He also said that someone has to make the plans and organize. He then said that he used to be Catholic and he definitely won’t be going back to that and that he didn’t like the hierarchy.
    The person who asked said “there is a hierarchy of the friends, elders, sister workers, brother workers, older workers, and overseers.”
  • Ray said that it’s important to have overseers who are led by God and to manage, otherwise every worker would just be doing what they think is right. (Pointing to the sisters workers) he says the sister workers are submissive in their place and are happy to be. Maybe you would like to speak on that? (Motioning for a sister worker to speak).

Letter to the church, whether or not you attend meetings

All my life I have preferred to stay out of the spotlight, to quietly try to fill my place and do my part. Unfortunately, there sometimes comes a time where it is necessary to be willing to stand for what is right while others sit silently by. I recently went to Hermosa convention with a testimony burned on my heart. For days I wrestled with it, prayed and meditated on it. Asked if it could come from someone else, asked if I could give the testimony and the words be remembered, but not the speaker. Sometimes the answer that we receive is no, and that was my answer. I will not deny the message that God has put on my heart. I will not stand idly by while evil and self-interest pervades God’s people. I stood in the first meeting and spoke my message. As close as I can recall it:

“I have come here with a message upon my heart, and I will have no peace until I share it. David committed a terrible crime. He used his power to take that which was not his, and then used his power to cover it up. He was forgiven, but there were consequences, and he became unworthy to build God’s temple. There will be a day when forgiveness is absolute, in eternity forgiveness will have no consequences and no loss of worthiness. But we are not in eternity, and while we are on earth there are consequences and there can be a loss of worthiness. Lately we have been hearing stories of those who used their power to commit terrible acts, and stories of those who used their power to cover those acts up. There can be forgiveness, but there are consequences and there is a loss of worthiness. Some have become unworthy of having fellowship in our homes – especially ones with the most innocent and vulnerable. Some have become unworthy to be a part of God’s ministry. Every year we hear from the platform about that desperate need in the harvest field. There is a need, but that need might not seem so desperate if the worthy ministers were not unevenly yoked with the unworthy and with wolves.”

This is not a message I feel worthy to speak on but is a message that I must share. There seems to be a thought amongst some that the only way to be saved is to attend meetings. That casting people from our fellowship homes is relegating people to hell. That is not true. We do not need meetings to be saved, we need a close personal relationship with God. Abusers that are truly repentant will see that they are a danger to the meetings and accept that they have lost worthiness. They will accept that there are places that they cannot go, that there are positions that they are unworthy of. The ones who fight against those consequences are the ones who are not repentant.

Growing up reading the bible I was aware that there were going to be false ministers, that there were going to be wolves in sheep’s clothing hiding among the flock. So, when the stories originally came out I was sad, but not surprised. What did surprise me were the stories that kept coming out about all of those who used their position to sweep things under the rug. To tell victims of terrible abuse that they needed to forgive their abusers and to not involve the law. Hearing of workers, who were known to be abusers, moved to a different state rather than removed from the ministry and arrested. I cannot begin to express the hate that has raged in my heart since hearing those stories. We are to be like God. To love the things that God loves and to hate the things that God hates. God hates the abuse of his little ones. God hates that the abusers are allowed to remain in his ministry. God hates that ministers in positions of power would prefer to do that which is easy to that which is right.

It’s easy to pass off the blame. It’s easy to tell victims that they need to forgive their abusers. It’s easy to allow people to remain in meetings, to allow ministers to remain in the ministry. None of it is right. Mathew 23:24 “Ye blind guides, which strain at a gnat and swallow a camel.” Why is there such a strain to tell survivors to forgive those who are not even repentant. Why is that the gnat that causes such consternation. You have swallowed the camel that is sexual assault. You have swallowed the camel that is abuse. Mathew 23:25 “Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For ye make clean the outside of the cup and of the platter, but within they are full of extortion and excess.”

I will name no names in this letter. I do not know who the righteous are and who the unrighteous are. The overseers and the workers know who among them is unworthy. The elders and meetings know who among them is unworthy. They know who clings to power. They know who (Matthew 23:26) “love the uppermost rooms at feasts, and chief seats at the synagogues.” Cast them out.

There are few things that Jesus said that are said in multiple gospels. One thing that was said in Mathew, Mark, and Luke was deemed important enough to be included in 3 of them. Mark 9:42 “And whosoever shall offend one of these little ones that believe in me, it is better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and he were cast into the sea.” That verse isn’t just for the people who have perpetrated abuse. Not just for those who swept it under the rug. That verse is also for those who sat idly by. Those who, through their lack of standing against evil, caused offence. In testimony we also heard at Hermosa that in the parable of the good Samaritan that it was the fault of the thieves that the man was in a ditch on the side of the road. But that as soon as the Levite and priest saw and did nothing, they were why that man was still in the ditch.

John Stuart Mill wrote “Bad men need nothing more to compass their ends, than that good men should look on and do nothing.” Too many have done nothing. Too many have walked on the other side of the road while the wounded were dying. Too many have trusted that others knew best. Do not deceive yourself. You know what is best, you know what Jesus would do. He would cast the evil out.

I have seen many letters from those who have stopped coming to meetings, explaining why – the wrong that they saw in the church. This is my letter as to why I have stayed. It is not because I need the fellowship. Never have I learned or grown more in my personal relationship with God, than during Covid when we had no fellowship meetings. I stayed, because I love the friends. It is because I believe that this is the closest thing to what Jesus taught. I have stayed because I believe that change must come from within. I am unafraid of being asked not to share. I am unafraid of being asked not to attend. Mathew 10:28 “Fear not them which kill the body but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear him which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.”

I have seen the pride that people have in what family people come from. People revering “good families” as if the next generation inherits the testimony of the prior. I have seen people looked down on because they aren’t from the white middle or upper class. I have seen the pervasion of tradition being treated as scripture. I have seen people create rules and treat them as if they are the law. I have not been blind. I have tried to do everything I can to push back on those wrongs, but now I publicly state the feelings of my heart on these issues.

Some of the worst offences we have seen are by those who come from a “good family” and “made a mistake”. That attitude is what allows repeat offenders to continue their offences. A lot of the offences are pushed under the rug because they are committed on those that are seen as on the fringes of the flock. Offenders can sense who the most vulnerable are. They can sense who the flock does not fully welcome. They target them and go free, because people don’t care as much about them. I will not dance around the issues with niceties and platitudes. Often it is the poor, the ones from broken homes, and the minorities who get no consideration. When they face abuse and cry out, they are the most likely to be told what happened was their own fault. There is an issue with racism. There is an issue with classism. There is an issue with elitism. There is an issue with sexism. There is an issue with tradition. God’s way is perfect, but men are trying to walk it imperfectly. These are the imperfections. These are the reasons that it took so long for these issues to come to light. Unless I am asked not to, I will consider myself a part of this way, but I will not accept the wrongs that are pervading it.

It may feel less important than some of the terrible wrongs that have been happening, but it is also important to stamp out the littler things. The tradition of it being evil or wrong for women to wear pants or have their hair down is something that should have been left in the past. The continued control of how women look, and dress is about control and shame. There is no reason that people dress in a specific way to go to fellowship meetings. How many people who would have happily shared fellowship with us have been turned aside by something that is not biblical and is treated as if it is. It is not because they are unwilling, it is because they see something that is not of God. It is easier to blame others than look within.

Do what is right, not what is easy. Look within the fellowship, cast out traditions, prove the ministers, and live for God.

Trevor Larsen

Fargo, ND

Two Professing Women Share their Stories

This is a combined letter. Two women in their 50’s, one from Australia, one from New Zealand. They are related by marriage and friends by choice, forever united due to csa in their past. Their stories should be rare, especially in an organisation where the whole purpose and ethos is centred around Godly things. Their stories should be rare even from just a human standpoint. Yet, as we all know by now, their stories have become familiar, they’re almost the norm these days.

One of the children was about 12 years old when she jumped innocently into bed with her grandfather. It wasn’t long before his hands were inside her underwear. She froze then managed to escape the further harm that had been done to her cousins and perhaps her sisters. Like the other perpetrator, this man was much respected, an elder, he even had a child in the work. No one suspected what was going on and even if they had, they would not have said anything as that is the culture of the church. Ignore it. It is not happening if we ignore it.

The other child was swimming in a public swimming pool with her family. The father of another family sat her on his knee and asked if she could feel “that”. She had no idea what “that” was but an instinct deep in her soul told her this was incredibly wrong. He caught up with her again some time later and tried to pull her underwear down. Again she escaped before further harm could be inflicted. This man was the elder of a church, he had a meeting in his home and he was revered by all. None suspected what was going on and even if they had, they would not have said anything as that is the culture of the church. Ignore it. It is not happening if we ignore it.

One of these children experienced another trauma at the age of 18. She was touched inappropriately by a male worker. Maybe he doesn’t even remember this interaction but she does. She had buried it deep in her memory until it came crashing back to her when she read a recent account of this same man. He is now out of the work due to his extremely disgraceful behaviour in a foreign country.

Through the years these women have tried to keep their experiences as children in perspective. They’ve told themselves that others were harmed worse, even by the men who harmed them. Yet those encounters have affected their entire lives. Choices they’ve made, the way they brought up their own children, their mental health and on and on. CSA continues to cause harm all throughout life. These women will not be silenced anymore. They both still attend meetings and they both are willing to do everything in their power to ensure that not one more child is harmed by powerful men within the church.

Ex-worker Writes to the Ministry

Dear workers,

I was once one of you. You are very familiar with parables and stories. I feel compelled to share this with you. I am trying to help you understand where I am, why I’m here, how I feel, and who did this to me. The only way I can do this justice is by telling you a story that describes that. Reading this will be (and should be) VERY uncomfortable for you. If you have an ounce of integrity, if you have any faith in Christ, if you have any feeling in your heart for souls beyond yourself, read this despite the discomfort.

I stand on the doorstep of your house. I knock, but expect no answer. How do I know I’m at the right place? There is no address. I can tell because this house is different than every other house I’ve passed. From them, I heard crying and wailing. I peeked in some of their windows and saw people weeping. What a pitiful state they were in! Their skin was covered with rashes where the uncomfortable sackcloth irritated it. Between their sobs they often coughed as dust from the ashes around them got caught in their throat.

But this house is different. The only sounds that might represent sorrow are the cries of “why me?” and “it’s not fair!” when another perpetrator gets caught. I peek through a window and listen in on the conversations. The discussions aren’t joyful, but they’re not repentant either. “How much longer must we endure this drudgery? Surely things will get back to the blissful normalcy we deserve soon!” The words are loud and clear, no one is sorry for them to be overheard.

Oh yes, I am at the right house. I struggle with the burden in my arms and knock again. Someone has been here before me. They tore the cover off of a copy of your gospel meeting hymn book. With a marker, they circled the part of the cover that carries the warning in small caps: “WORDS ONLY”. The cover has been nailed to the door as a warning to anyone who stops by expecting action, change, help, or even compassion. “WORDS ONLY”, no fruit here.

I’ve taken enough time. I need to keep moving. I leave my load on the stoop and walk away.

What will you find when you finally open the door? You will find the body of my faith, faith that has been with me for decades. Crushed and lifeless, totally broken beyond repair. Not my faith in “The Truth”, not my faith in a group of people, not my faith in a ministry.

This was my faith in the very existence of a kind and loving God.

Who did this?

You did. Time and again (beginning when I was a teenager), when I personally needed help, you were nowhere. When Dean Bruer’s truth was made public, you refused to expose the evildoers you knew about. You took so long to respond to the crisis that it is obvious your care was never for the victim-survivors. You care most of all for your own reputation and so you tried to hush the cries of the injured. I have never trusted wicked men to do the right thing, but I trusted you. You failed me and so many others. Your influence and false doctrine convinced people to write letters to judges in support for perpetrators — letters that called the victims liars.

You did this. You taught that hell was a place for those who disagreed with you. You spoke as an authority on things you could not have known. You had fellowship with abusers but said gay people were “confused”. You never asked a gay person what their relationship with God was like. Even today, the thought of a gay person existing and having a relationship with God fills you with discomfort and dread… and even if you feel otherwise you would never dare preach it because you love the praise of men more than the praise of the God you preach.

And what about your treatment of workers who leave the work? “WORDS ONLY”. This week a worker from this field went home because his young frame is worn out by this injustice. Did the overseer send him home with any financial help? Nope, we asked him. Overseers have proven to be very comfortable watching ex-workers suffer. You will preach about “love”, but you refuse to show it, or to even encourage your ex-workers to get counseling for the trauma you have caused. You refuse to give them funds to make that possible.

But not everyone in the work is an overseer! What about those who aren’t? What about brothers and sisters who aren’t in positions of leadership? There is no longer a distinction between good worker and bad worker. All who continue are a part of the ministry of destruction. You say you are powerless, but you have a voice. Have you used it? Have you been angry when you saw oppression? Have you valued souls in their agony enough to speak out? Have you been like most, frozen in fear of what you might suffer by speaking out loudly and definitely? Or have you been motivated by love to make things right for the injured and the oppressed?

What have you preached? Have you preached the doctrine of a creator who loved souls so much he made a plan with another part of his divine self to sacrifice him to purify souls? It is said that there was such love and unity between them that still today people debate whether God is one person or three. Was the doctrine you preached similarly united with the values of that divinity? Or was it a doctrine that “flesh is so bad, the world is so bad, you are so bad”, a doctrine that focused not on how marvelous God is, but rather on how right your form is?

Interestingly, scripture teaches that your God lives within people, but few ever felt pure enough to believe it. What if that message was supposed to be that Love lives within us? It does say that “God is love”. If there is a God and he is love, he has been sorely misrepresented by your actions and your inactions.

My faith is dead. Others’ faith is dying. You are the reason. You accuse people of trying to destroy God’s way, yet you refuse to be good or honest enough to admit that you are the force of destruction for so many children, parents, siblings, souls. Some of you say “But we are doing things! We are believing the victims! We are turning people in to authorities and assisting with investigations!” But you also justify the heavy loads you’ve laid on us when you didn’t understand, you’ve told us to stay in a toxic place, you’ve scolded us for being “rash” when we got fed up with the psychological injuries we’ve endured.

My faith is dead and you do not care.

Where is this purposeful stride taking me now? Where am I headed? I am going to the wilderness. You taught me that was a place to avoid, a place that is unsafe. There is nowhere less safe than your house. I am going to the wilderness. I am going to learn and to love. Love is the only thing I trust now. I know those who have loved me and I know those whom I have loved. I will meet others and love them, too. Is love divine? I don’t know. I do know love isn’t all-powerful. I do know love doesn’t know everything. I do know if there is a God someday he will teach me about himself through love. He will not punish me for letting go of false, hurtful, powerless doctrine. Even if there is no God, our love for one another can only make this life better.

So I am going to the wilderness. This is where you have driven me.

  • How many more souls must see their faith destroyed?
  • How many others must you drive away before you repent?

Make no mistake: CSA is a wicked fruit. You must deal with it now. However, if you only deal with the fruit and not with the root, wickedness will rise up again in time.

  • Why has your fellowship and your ministry become such a safe place for perpetrators?
  • Why have sister workers gone from house to house teaching that the solution is for parents to do better at watching their children?
  • Why do you refuse to clothe your spirit in sackcloth and sit in ashes?
  • Why do you preach about repentance but prove to be wholly incapable and unwilling to practice it?
  • What is it about your ministry that you are so proud of? What seems so righteous or good to you that you so willingly excuse all the wickedness, deceit, and coverups?
  • And finally, Mr. Ray Hoffmann, when you knew everything that Ira Hobbs had done, why did you write in a letter, “The things that we have felt needful to discuss here is in no way to take away from all the good that Ira has done, nor of Americo”?

These are uncomfortable questions you must ask if you have any hope of the future being better. These are not questions I need to hear answered because I am done with “WORDS ONLY”. But there are others who still look to you expecting help. Do not destroy their faith as you have destroyed mine. You consider the blood of Jesus holy. If you believe that, then start treating the souls on whose behalf that blood was shed as holy as well.

Sincerely finished,

Joel Riggs

David L Johnson – OH

In 2012 David Johnson waived trial by jury and pleaded guilty to nine charges of sexual battery and one charge of gross sexual imposition on a victim aged under 18.

He was sentenced to the agreed plea deal of 12 years imprisonment and then supervision for five years post-release. He was classified as a Tier II Offender and required to reregister annually for 10 years.

In 2018, 2020 and 2022 he applied to reopen the case for Judicial release. Each time the Court found that Judicial Release was not warranted and was denied, so he remains in prison until 2024.

The 2018 application for release was supported by references written by John Wilbur (worker) and five friends. John Wilbur also wrote a pre-sentence reference in 2012.

In July 2023 John Wilbur has written the letter below, which is an example of repentance. He didn’t make excuses, he acknowledged that writing the reference letters was hurtful (even though he didn’t intend for them to be) and he wants to be part of the solution. 


Tuesday, July 11, 2023

To all:
I am so sorry. This morning I read the letters I wrote and I cringed. I was asked by David’s family to write them. We thought we were doing the right thing, but we were not. If I understood then what I understand now, I never would have written them. That is not an excuse. I was wrong.

Specifically, I said that I did not think David would abuse again. I was wrong to say that. I understand now that I have no way of knowing that.

Particularly, I am sorry to the survivor of David’s abuse. I understand that the letters I wrote minimized your suffering. I have thought of you many times over the years. You never should have faced what you faced.

I am sorry to all who have suffered abuse. I have heard your stories — thank you for sharing them. You are courageous. I am with you. When I was in grades 4 and 5, I was abused by an elementary school teacher. I still am not ready to talk about it. I know what you have suffered has affected your life. It has affected mine.

People are angry and I understand why. If you are able, please forgive me — although I understand if you cannot yet. Far too many people have been hurt for far too long. I do not want to hurt anyone. I want to help you heal.

I am so sorry for the hurt I have caused.

Sincerely,

John Willbur


Michael Dunn, Lakewood NY

Michael J Dunn was convicted in 2004 of Sexual Conduct Without Consent on a 22 year old male in 2002 and sentenced to one year imprisoment.. He had a previous conviction in 1999 of Sexual Abuse-2nd Degree on a 13 year old male in 1998.

It is understood that after release from prison he was not allowed in meetings with the victim but otherwise allowed to go to fellowship meetings.

Hierarchy and Power

I wish to remain anonymous at this present time. (Edit: Author is now sharing their identity: Darrin MacDonald, New Brunswick, Canada)

Regarding the posted letter of: Friends Letter to Overseers and Workers. Friends’ Letter to Overseers and Church

I agree with the direction of the letter. I applaud the ambitions of our concerned friends and fully support the need for real change. Have for many years. Thank you for speaking out.

However, I would ask the church to read and consider the included attachment and see where we have gotten to in our generation.
Ask yourself where God fits into this manmade structure?
Ask yourself who is the greatest in the Kingdom?
Examine the honesty and transparency of these leaders, and those who so strongly support their role in the framework.

These same three men in power are fighting to every extent to hold control, including continued threats to all who wish to even be aware of the crisis we are in. They are holding the support of most workers and elders in our region. Every evidence points to the need for their removal.

Who has chosen the chief overseer?
Who has chosen the other overseers?
Who has chosen the elders?

Some workers are chosen by God.
Some workers are volunteers.
Perhaps some elders are chosen by God, but in our experience, elders are chosen for convenience. In our area, a known pedophile was chosen to be an elder. Some are blessed by God. Some are not.

The responsibility of making changes in the operation of our “Truth”, must be left to God. Leaving this in the hands of selected people will be the wrong direction. We do not want a manmade worship. We worship God. Discussions and decisions must include all members, who wish to participate.

God’s beautiful “friends” should not be considered a “lower place”.
Remember how Jesus felt about the child in their midst.

Barry, Ray and Dale have been asked by this group to “Humbly take the lower place”. I plead for us as a people to get away from “higher” and “lower place”. To work to become one. These three men cannot hold any place in the ministry. As long as their name is on the list, they are holding the money and authority. Almost all, if not all, other workers and elders will adhere to their authority – whatever lesser level of management we or they pretend they are filling.

These three named men are currently holding discussions at Ellershouse Convention grounds in Nova Scotia, Canada.

This may be an opportune time for this growing group of supporters of Truth, to move beyond the posted notice requesting them to take the “lower” place and ask them to leave the work completely.

This will open the door for restoration of God’s true ministry.

Thank you. For your consideration and part in this needed change in our direction.
Thank you for speaking up.

Anonymous


Management Pyramid

Also Known as a Hierarchical Structure

Following is the management system the “Truth” has grown into in the past one hundred years.

Chief Overseer.

  • Male only.
  • Absolute authority over all workers, friends, meetings, conventions, decisions etc. in a very large geographical area, including large parts of countries and multiple countries.
  • Holding large sums of money.

General Overseer.

  • Male only.
  • Reporting directly to Chief overseer.
  • Authority over all workers and friends in same geographical area.
  • Authority to make some decisions without consulting above management.
  • Holding large sums of money.

Regional Overseer.

  • Reporting directly to general overseer and in some cases chief overseer.
  • Authority with consultation and approval from above management over all workers and friends, meetings decisions etc. in a smaller geographical area. May include one or several provinces or states.
  • Authority to make lesser decisions without consultation of above management.

Senior brother workers

  • Reporting directly to regional or general overseer.
  • Willing to promote and enforce any and all direction received from senior management.
  • Given field responsibility and responsibilities over tasks. Travel tickets, vehicle arrangements, convention management etc., hall bookings, etc. (Authorized to delegate to a junior brother).

Junior brother workers

  • Reporting directly to senior brother or companion with field responsibility and receiving/taking all instruction.
  • May be given responsibility to manage a convention during preparation, etc.

Senior sister workers

  • Receive all direction from Brother workers, senior or junior.
  • Assigned field responsibility.
  • Assigned responsibility during convention preparations of domestic tasks, (cooking, laundry, cleaning).
  • Assigned domestic responsibility during conventions. (Dining area, laundry etc., sleeping)

Junior sister workers

  • Receive direction from all senior sister and brother workers.
  • Receive all directions and planning from companion with field responsibility.
  • Assigned responsibility during conventions over domestic tasks.

Elders

  • Responsibility for meeting in the home, over an appointed church.
  • Receive all direction from field workers or any level of workers above.
  • May or may not be included in meetings of workers where local planning involving meeting, convention changes etc. are being considered.

Elder’s wives

  • May be included to have a seat in worker meetings considering local meeting decisions.

Deacons. (No real named position)

  • Male in a meeting appointed to be second to the elder of the church.
  • Will fill in as the elders role when elder is not available, and will be consulted on small meeting changes etc.

Privileged friends

  • The friends that hold a greater importance to the workers.
  • May be built on a genuine friendship.
  • Will be included in some worker information not shared to the general church.
  • Will only exist where the workers are gaining some privilege. (Usually based on giving of funds, usefulness at providing work or other needs at a convention, open home for use, mail management etc).

Friends

The men, women and children that make up the church, meetings, conventions etc.

Money flows to the top.
Authority flows from the top.