Paul McKay of Moira, Northern Ireland, sentenced for attempted child sexual offences

28th April 2023

Paul McKay, a 31 year old man from professing family in the Moira area, was sentenced at Craigavon Crown Court for offences including attempted sexual communication with a child and attempting to cause or incite a child under 13 to engage in sexual activity.

McKay will serve nine months in custody and nine months on licence. He will be placed on the Sex Offenders Register for 10 years and will be subjected to a Sexual Offences Prevention Order (SOPO) for seven years.

Detective Inspector Richard Vasey said:  “McKay, who thought he was sexually communicating with a 12 year old child online, had actually been communicating with an undercover police officer.

“Let this serve as a reminder to those who think they can go undetected in online spaces. We are everywhere. I have a highly dedicated team with specialised equipment who can trace any digital interaction right back to the persons front door. We continue to work robustly in this area to identify and bring perpetrators behind a screen, in front of a judge to answer for their crimes.”

WINGS Note: Changed from ‘professing man’ to ‘man from professing family’ after further information was provided to WINGS. McKay had harrassed young professing people.

Brad Holman removed from convention

Brad Holman was removed from Scottsbluff Convention in Nebraska on Wednesday, due to several allegations of sexual abuse and inappropriate behavior toward children, teens, and adult women.

Brad has labored in Minnesota, Colorado, Oklahoma, Missouri, and Arkansas. He has been laboring in Oklahoma for the past two years. Brad’s overseer is Craig Winquist.

Missouri Meeting of friends and workers

Four Workers were in attendance at this meeting

Craig Winquist, Greg Mynear, Cheri Fisk and Bertha Magsam

Between 50-75 of the friends attended from around the state of Missouri

It was very evident the Holy Spirit was present at this meeting. Please understand fallible humans put together this transcript to the best of their ability. The meeting lasted 3 full hours so it is hard to capture it all and we wanted as many voices as possible to be put into this document.

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June 4, 2023 Meeting about CSA –

Elder wife Opened with Prayer

Elder begins:

Thank you all for coming. My hopes in facilitating this meeting is to increase open and honest communication regarding what is being done and what needs to be done to keep our children safe in our fellowship. We appreciate the workers being willing to be here to hear our concerns.

It is my hope that we can have an open, safe, constructive and civil discussion that will help our workers and our state and our friends take the necessary steps to recognize and help victims, remove offenders and prevent these abuses in the future.

I want EVERYONE here to keep in mind that some here have endured these abuses and have the wounds and scars that they leave. This is FOR them and I hope THAT is considered in all questions and comments. They are to be believed and validated and helped. They are not to be preached to or asked to forgive and move on. These are CRIMES that have been committed against children, and we all know what it says in scripture about hurting little ones, so telling a victim to just forgive what happened when they were just a child is unfair and heaps more guilt upon their wounds.

 I’ll give a quick time line of events:

  • Since the Dean Bruer story broke the end of March, 18 workers or former workers have been removed from the work &/or fellowship in the US and Canada for Sexual crimes or sexual misconduct
  • 13 elders/professing persons have had allegations made or have been charged with sexual crimes and have been dealt with in a variety of ways, some appropriate & some questionable.
  • One Canadian sister worker courageously has written of the abuses she has endured and continues to endure in the work
  • The folks on the Woodstock convention grounds in New Brunswick, put out a letter publicly clarifying that their own daughter is no longer in the work due to sexual abuse and severe mental trauma, after their letter was published the workers removed the convention from their place for 2023, after much outcry from the friends, the workers reinstated a very minimized version of convention for 3 days.
  • An overseer in the Western states is likely to have charges in the days or months ahead
  • JUST SINCE MARCH ….There have been 400 + perpetrators revealed in the truth including overseers, workers, elders, and friends and new allegations are coming in everyday and are under investigation. Per capita, this appears to be worse than the Catholic church. Every day the internet is filled with new stories of victims of abuse. Some dating back decades. I fear the number of the victims still silent is staggering.

I hope we can stick as closely to the subject of CSA as possible, but I am well aware as many others are, of the underlying causes that have created this culture where it has proliferated and grown to an epidemic level. Addressing this culture is definitely part of the long term solution.

Opening question to Craig: “Do we have a zero-tolerance policy on CSA?”

  • Craig: “Yes, it has to be zero. Though it has been assumed that we always have had a zero tolerance.”

I was going to start with a different question, but late last night we received a letter that must be read. These victims are not able to attend in person.

An open letter was read as follows:

We are sisters, and we are both victim survivors of child sexual abuse (CSA). We grew up around the Kansas City area, and spent a lot of time with family, especially during the summers, as our parents worked outside of the home. For a couple of summers specifically, in the mid-1990s, we spent time with our aunt Julie Simpson and her husband Rick. Because Julie also worked outside of the home, we were left in the care of Rick during the day. That’s when the continual assaults happened, over the course of about two years. It started with him grooming us, and gradually got worse and worse. For those who are unfamiliar, grooming is “when someone builds a relationship, trust and emotional connection with a child or young person so they can manipulate, exploit and abuse them. Children and young people who are groomed can be sexually abused, exploited or trafficked.”

This is not language or behavior that we understood at the time, and still we don’t understand it, but we certainly know what it is, and that it happened to us. This is behavior that we have seen from Rick towards others as well, and we do know that we are not the only victims of this perpetrator and pedophile, Rick Simpson. It is because of this that we chose to come forward today. Although we can’t be there in person at this time, our goal is to stop this abuse from continuing with others. The impact that the trauma of surviving CSA has on a person is FOR A LIFETIME. It is recurrent torture that we have to endure – nightmares and triggers, and a severe and deep, and seemingly insurmountable fear of trusting others.

For about 25 years we have been silenced – by the workers and by the friends of this fellowship. All of this came out for the first time while the abuse was still happening, and once our parents found out, we immediately separated ourselves from Rick and Julie. Rick was approached, and although he tearfully admitted to inappropriate behavior, he didn’t tell the whole truth. Although counseling through the school began, it suddenly all came to a screeching halt, but we never knew why. Several years later, the wounds were ripped open again, and this time, more people found out, but still, it was all swept under the rug. We were strongly (mis)guided against going to the authorities and letting the law take care of it. So again, we were silenced – told to forgive and forget. We even had one sister worker, Glenda Pickering, tell us blatantly that it was our fault. She pinned our mother against the wall in our own home, and verbally berated her, until another sister came to our mother’s rescue.

Through the years our parents informed each new worker that came into our field, and each time begged them to take meeting out of his home, and take him out of the meetings and keep him away from conventions, so he couldn’t hurt anyone else. Every time, they were denied. There are at least eight workers that knew of the abuse, and didn’t do ANYTHING.

We have had to sit in special meetings and conventions with him throughout the years, and every time, it was torture. Watching him “undress women with his eyes,” seeing him watching the children at the playground at convention, watching him be praised for all of his helpfulness to the friends and workers for conventions and special meetings. All the while, knowing that this man is a pedophile, and feeling completely powerless to stop him.

No longer. “Time heals all wounds” and “forgive and forget” will no longer silence us. We believe very strongly that God is shining His light on all of this at this time for His purpose. We believe He has moved us to come forward. And our only goal in all of this is to get the abuse to stop. Because other victims before us were silenced, we were victimized. We don’t want that awful vicious cycle to continue, so we are speaking out. We know there are other victims. Some we have heard their stories personally, others have been told to us by third parties, and unfortunately we believe there are even more out there who have not yet come forward. We are coming to you today to encourage you to come forward. Know that you are loved, and you have more support than you can imagine. We know it’s not easy, we’re

walking this out right now. But we are here for you, and we will fight with you. Come forward and help us to get our voices heard so that all of the abuse, deceit, and lies come to a stop. THERE MUST BE ACTION. The church covering up the abuse HAS TO STOP.

The workers being allowed to “handle” these situations has to stop. They are not qualified for that. It MUST be reported to the law, and left in the law’s hands.

– The Priest sisters, Jennifer Westerman and Angela deBoer

**Later in the meeting the Priest girls sent in a message of clarification in defense of their parents. The authorities were informed. In fact, child services called our mother and Pat Johnson, who was a worker, was with her at the time. The school counselor told us that a police officer would be coming, but it never happened. and all of the sudden everything stopped and went away, so somewhere in this obstruction of justice happened.

  • Craig in response – “What do you say? It is true. It seems like God is directing this and it is a divine wind. The Lord really wants to prepare his people to be his bride. We simply have to remove what he can’t tolerate. For too many years it has been swept under the rug. The carpet can’t cover any more. We have to face reality. We need to fix what’s broken. We need to provide help for the victims. We’ve provided space and help for the perpetrators, but not the victims. Why? Perpetrators are easier to define. On the other side of the coin is the victim. They may not say anything for over 20 years… their pathway to healing is unique and doesn’t have a timeline. They have been living in an internal agony. Craig states he has been reading a book written by a sexual abuse victim.
  • We all need to be educated:
  • Workers need to look after one another and not be here to just protect each other
  • Parents take responsibility for their children.

Craig – What is the path forward? An admission – we are sorry where this has been mishandled, wrongly handled, etc. We want to do the right thing. We aren’t here to protect one another.

What kind of changes will we institute? Not sure at this time what will make a difference over the long-term. If someone comes forward, we automatically assume it’s true. Only 5% of cases are false accusations. We have to assume that 100% are true because of this until investigations could find out otherwise.

  • We realize people have every right not to trust the workers, and yet that is an important part of what we are about. Trust is part of a marriage – if you lose trust, the relationship will fall apart. It means new procedures will help build more trust. And hope that in the long-term, the worker’s conduct will prove that they can be trusted.

Who investigates what? Craig – we need to avoid all conflict of interests. Should the workers investigate workers? Probably not. Turned over to third parties and professional investigators. We must accept whatever that investigator would come up with as a solution.

  • What part do overseers have? Seems like they’ve been a big part of the problem. Craig previously dealt with a situation in Minnesota and felt he needed to write a letter. And if other workers felt it was wrong, he was willing to lose his place. We have to have courage to “write the letter.” If we lose our place because people misunderstand us, God knows, and we can stay sure in that reality.

Craig wants to listen mostly and allow this to be like a town hall.

Open Time to share and ask – only Craig or the workers were named in the below. If it was the same person speaking or same story, an effort was made for the thoughts and sub thoughts to be under the initial statement.

  • There are a variety of perspectives on the internet. Some say you shouldn’t question workers at all, ever. And then others who want to see this fellowship break down and would bring accusations (whether true or false) against everyone.
  • 2007, Tim Severud Minnesota case,(Tim was Craigs companion at the time ) the letter Craig wrote: he informed people well it seemed for the time, however the letter was a month after the arrest. The man was in prison for a while, and then released as a level 3 predator. (level 3 is then explained as the worst of the worst) Craig stated the man would not be put in a meeting but would only be in a meeting with everyone’s knowledge of his history.
    • Craig response – we (Lyle Schoeber) told him to turn himself into the police. He said “I need time to get things together,” the workers monitored that and then a week later, he turned himself in.
    • a friend reports: There was a 911 call made from NE Minnesota about the issue soon after the abuse was made known, by sister worker who was aware of the situation.
    • Craig states, he wasn’t aware of a 911 call being made
    • Craig was asked why, he, as Tim’s companion, he didn’t report Tim to the authorities.
    • Craig said Tim needed to tie up some loose ends, which he did for a week, he states at the time he didn’t know it was mandatory to report
    • Craig is asked if he loves little children, we know God loves little children, and if he does love little children why would he not report it and let Tim have a week to do some things? Why do you have to be told it is mandatory?
    • Craig stated we told him to turn himself in, if he hadn’t we would have then taken him in
    • Craig was asked : had you not taken ministry safe before this?
    • Craig states no
    • Craig wasn’t sure where the perpetrator was exactly for the week in between when he was tying things up. He was not in the homes at that time, but Craig wasn’t sure where he went.
    • Response shared: You can’t tell someone “go turn yourself in.” It is a crime to not turn someone else in. Several nurses speak up that have been nurses for over 30 years, that they have known for 30 years it is against the law to not report. It is also stated that we know we cannot change what happened in the past and that we all make mistakes, but The goal is to hear that lessons have been learned by the workers and everyone from these past cases.
    • Craig acknowledges that things have been learned he also states “sometimes the legal system helps us and sometimes it doesn’t”
    • Craig moved in 2008, and didn’t follow up with other scenarios.
    • There is a concern by folks about meeting being taken out of homes of people who refuse to meet with someone because of their past.
    • Tim has been back in fellowship since release from prison Craig reports that specific non child meeting was created for him however, thenCraig reports There was a situation where a traveling family came, didn’t call ahead and children were present in a meeting where there was a predator. The meeting was set up specifically for that individual, some people in the meeting took chaperone training as well.
    • Concern is shared of having perpetrators in ANY fellowship, as there are risks and it really should not be.
    • concern is that while education is good, it should not take classes to know what is morally best in the interest of protecting children and reporting
  • Concern shared that Craig even had a concern about losing his place as a worker in the above story, for being direct and for sharing the letter. People (the church body) want to make sure there isn’t that culture. We don’t want the workers who are trying to cover up a situation to be the ones who are holding accountability, or to kick other workers out who try to take it to the authorities. Craig stated “I’m not loyal to being overseer. I’m loyal to you all.” I want to work with my fellow overseers, but my first priority is to you all and to my staff
    • The coworkers are expected to support one another, but also to make sure one another is accountable.
  • Concern that the education will help bring awareness, but also will help perpetrators hide.
  • Concern is shared why people even go to the workers, a female friend says , often it has went to workers because a worker has been a perpetrator and then often it has the appearance that overseers are colluding to cover for the crimes of their coworker.
  • Concern about worker movement from field to field with little knowledge sharing. There must have been someone who knew a worker was getting counseling for CSA, and yet that worker was still in charge of Convention Preps, in Montana, even just recently. There could be charges in both Canada and Montana. There are victims in both areas he was at.
  • Specific scenario from STL area dealt with it in the meeting – after the parent got over his rage, he made a call to the sheriff, and got a restraining order. Then went to the DA. They went to the sheriff first and talked to the workers second. We need to be transparent about all things. This individual was a problem in multiple states (with women of all ages). We can’t afford to not be involved in people’s business.
    • The head worker wasn’t aware of it, and had to call the former worker to become aware of it.
    • The elders of the meeting need to be very aware of it.
    • We trust people who come to meetings and it needs to be communicated effectively and transparently. Encourage accountability on multiple levels.
    • “We need to be able to talk about this and not to say, “you don’t have the right spirit” when we try and have transparency and accountability.
    • About 3 months after, some of the older folks felt sorry for the perpetrator and wanted him to come to meeting. Accommodations once again were made for a perpetrator
    • We need to be able to reach outside our fellowship too for knowledge base, because this is a knowledge issue. Not a spiritual issue. Workers don’t have the knowledge and they need our help as friends that have different backgrounds as well. We need experts to work on these issues.
  • Wife of the individual above – when they reported it to the authorities, she had to go before a judge and listen to the letter that was read (unclear what the letter was?) and was told to press charges.
    • You cannot depend on the justice system only. They’re bogged down with many cases.
    • Please do also pray for forgiveness for your own soul’s sake and for the sake of the soul of the other.
  • Put information out there for the experts to decide. “I don’t want someone to get in trouble,” isn’t an excuse. They may not get in trouble, but at least it starts the process.
  • Pediatrician spoke who has expertise in the field of the justice system and what it looks like:
    • It took one patient a year before it was reported. A physical examination was then done. They report their whole story once as protocol. It isn’t specific that they ask who the perpetrator is until it comes to the officers later. Then juvenile officers, social workers, and child abuse doctors are involved. They frequently have to go to court. Perpetrators frequently are good at lying. The legal system takes a while, so it takes a long time for people to see “justice” as they see fit. You also want to be cautious of not causing more trauma to the people who are victims.
    • If something doesn’t get “justice” it doesn’t always mean it was squashed by the church or the workers. If it is reported it could be the bogged down system too.
  • There are silos in the business world – when an entity is so big that there are entities inside the larger body that don’t communicate together. There are silos that the workers and friends fall into, elders, gendered, etc. The only way to break down silos is protocol. There needs to be a protocol that everyone is aware of. Whether a council or a group of people who get together to figure out the protocol is important. Unless protocol is put into place, nothing will change.
    • As a teacher, if you don’t report, you not only lose your job, but license, and you can’t go to another district. You can’t go to teach somewhere else.
  • There will still be perpetrators in the future, elderly victim shares her appreciation for the young folks taking a stand and being at the mtg.
  • We need to reframe and rethink – there have been so many victims that have been given their space and they lost out of fellowship because they weren’t given help. They were given too much space. Shared a concern for sister workers who have all been reporting these instances but silenced and have been victims themselves
  • Constantly making statements of how parents have to be vigilant is frustrating also, because most parents have been overprotective to the point of resentment by our children, we need them to be in a place where it is safe to be kids.
  • Concern shared for when meetings have been taken out of homes but not for good reasons, but for control. If reporting issues has been punished by less influence.
  • Nurse in a prison hospital: “See something, you have to report it.”
    • Missouri’s mandated reporter law was read
      • Does this say that Missouri’s prison system cares more for their prisoners than we care for our children? Hopefully not.
    • God is giving us the opportunity to present ourselves blameless, and this is a stain we have to clean.
    • What does a predator look like? It isn’t the scary individual, or the stranger. It is the one who is charismatic, well kept, and kind. The ones who if they have a claim made against them might make you say, “no that isn’t possible.”
  • Greg Mynear: If you go to the workers only, you also are responsible if you’re a mandated reporter. If you come to the workers, that’s okay, that’s necessary to share with the friends, but that isn’t the end of the line. But FIRST go to the law please! We all answer to God on all of this.
    • We have to go to the authorities on certain things.
    • If someone comes to the workers, the workers have to report it.
    • “when you all let us in your homes it tells your children that you trust us.”
  • There is a group that is forming, hopefully in each state, made up of mothers and fathers, that individuals can go to for safe places to report. If you’re interested they can contact Nadine Mead, she and Calvin know some that are working to facilitate that. This is very early and very grass roots.
    • Concern about Dean Breuer case, +400 people now have allegations
  • One frustration that was shared was that the Dean Bruer case was dumped on elders to share the Dean Breuer case, and some of them didn’t want to tell the case. And the wife of the elder went to a trusted sister worker who told her to stay quiet.
    • The sister worker said “Teach your children not to tempt the workers,” and that’s wrong.
  • Job said, “I made a covenant with my eyes,” and that’s applicable to a husband and wife. “I see a lot of beautiful women, but my commitment is to one.” This isn’t about others tempting men or what they’re wearing… “this boils down to adults controlling themselves.”
  • Joshua and his battles in the old testament – Some cities had different instructions. The first city, it was devoted to destruction, but some of it was held back by someone. And that stopped the people from having victory until it was fully dealt with and put away. This is necessary.
  • California and Georgia are working on codes of conduct for workers. They were passed around for people to look at.
  • There is a cultural problem with our church if some people felt they’d be looked at poorly for going to this meeting. The culture of fear needs to stop. That perpetuates silence and covering things up. I heard many different reactions to me coming today, from fear to anger to support.
  • Some people who suffered abuse didn’t feel they could bring it up to their own parents, because it wouldn’t be believed. Our culture needs to change!
  • Where does this go nationwide and in other states?
    • Letter from Scott Rauscher (spelling?) in Montana, about a worker who has recently been removed. He was undergoing counselling for pedophilia while in the work.
  • “Troubling that there are friends who don’t want to hear about this anymore” but we need to have this be communicated because some of these workers have been in Missouri. And some people still don’t know.
    • Names listed were Ken Pinney, Jeff Thayer, LeRoy Sanford, Kingsley, [name redacted] – all have some kind of accusation against them, but it hasn’t been communicated yet.Even if they’ve been visitors, how do we let people know about this?Request that we can share “are we doing everything we can to communicate this issue state to state, country to country, etc.”
    • Many many friends speak out that communication needs to happen, friends are willing to help!
      • The communication between states, we need to know that
  • Our attempt is to restore credibility and trust in our workers. Right now, people don’t know who is who, and it’s hard to have trust in the workers.
    • Not all problems are CSA, some are morality issues.
  • How do we communicate proactively? Nothing has been sent out. We want to see improvement.
  • A story from Dubai – the people in Bangladesh are very rude in practice. The same people go to Dubai and are upstanding citizens because they know they can’t get away with it. If people know they can’t get away with CSA into our fellowship, it will stop.
  • For those who are making these mistakes, the only way they will benefit is to face the consequence of their actions.
    • If love is the core of our belief, it isn’t very loving to not make and take the steps to hold people accountable.
  • A sister victim shared her story and how hard it was to go back home and constantly face her abuser at meetings, and listen her whole life about the excuses for his sick behavior, she stated we have to be aligned with God, we need to get deep in our prayer life and pray for overseers that they be aligned with God, for everyone. If we are ALL aligned with God (she states she doesn’t like to use the phrase “the truth”) because Jesus is THE WAY, if we all get aligned changes will come
  • Someone shared that her son was attacked as a child and she went to the workers instead of the authorities and she is now sorry that’s how she handled it. She loves the truth and it’s all she has. It’s time to build. Tearing down truth isn’t the answer. We have to address meanness in our own homes too, not just CSA. She stated she is an addict, she does not now use the substance she is addicted to, however she will forever be an addict and Pedophiles are addicts and they cannot be CURED they will forever be addicted to children.
  • We need a code of conduct for the elders too. Example: If a communication has been requested to go out, it does go out.
    • We also need to keep God in the center of our solution.
    • There is a beauty to our fellowship being organic and things not all being black and white. CSA is a very black and white issue. But we need to allow for communication standards that provide flexibility so the workers and friends can be moved by the spirit.
  • “I just want to know that changes are being made so that abuses of power cannot keep happening.”
    • He was told to keep things at home. Wants people to know that we can talk about the hard things. If changes need to be made, we can’t be afraid to have those changes either.”
  • Bertha, “The fear of the lord tendeth to life. They that have it shall be satisfied.” Her parents would take them outside and talk to them about God. If you teach a child the fear of God before age 6, it will take them through life. With God we are responsible. We don’t want to plan without the spirit of God. The workers don’t limit themselves to the place they have, but are in touch with others who are planning for the place of the workers. “We are first of all responsible to God and his spirit. So I’m trusting in the guidance, even of those who are planning for us, and they’re guided by the Spirit.”
  • We’re here because we love children and our faith. And we want to be defenders of both. When we know better, we can do better. It’s nice when we can be sheltered from the evil in the world, but when we know better we can do better. Appreciated the practical solutions we’ve talked about.
    • Want the workers to feel comfortable coming to us for help as well.
  • I would just like an email once in a while. More communication would be great.
  • This feels like a transformational meeting – to hear something and know that everyone has the same information, it’s helpful.
  • “We haven’t heard anything,” the lack of communication feels like something is being hidden. It seems like the lack of communication feels like there is something that should be shared that isn’t.
    • Some people could be on the fence in their faith, and if someone’s soul could be saved by a little communication, why wouldn’t you?
    • The sheep feel so nervous when the shepherd or sheep dog is away
    • Offenders could attend meeting virtually as a solution
  • I’m very thankful to hear the young voices. I’ve been struggling more than ever, just with wanting to come to meetings like I used to. Close friends have chosen to walk away, and that’s the easy way out. I don’t want to take that, but it’s hard.
  • God hasn’t changed and he will never change. The things that have happened have been because of man. And we need to learn how to change.
    • God doesn’t keep things in the dark, because he is light.
    • “Why now is this coming out?” Now is the time for them to be revealed because now is the time that the people will stand up and be willing to change.
  • When the news about [name redacted] was accused, someone got a personal phone call from Darla Fisher, letting them know. If an email feels too hard or removed, the phone is also an option. One person can’t make all the phone calls. But Darla contacted everyone who came in contact with [name redcated]. And it meant a lot that she brought the news personally as quickly as she could. “It can’t wait until the end of the day. The urgency meant a lot to me as a victim and a mother. Communication, in any means possible.”
  • Moses and Aaron example: if communication is hard for one, having a coworker who knows how to help is there too. It’s helpful for us also to know how to pray for the workers specifically.
    • Even the overseers need companions who can help them with their weaknesses.
    • If it’s communication, please be open with your help that’s needed.
    • Perfectionism – when we have a culture of perfectionism, then things are more likely to be hidden.
    • The downside of this being the “Truth” or the best/perfect way, is that we strive for perfection and that can help breed a culture of hiding. We need an abundance of grace to help so that there can be transparency, and not perfectionism.
  • Craig: We will work with authorities, we are not experts on where people are at. We don’t expect that perpetrators ever are really different. You have to keep them from getting in a place that they can hurt people. I don’t want to say, “we will never have a pedophile in a meeting,” because it may be a controlled place. But they won’t be in special meeting, conventions, if they are allowed somehow in a meeting, it will be restricted. Otherwise, we have a virtual option.
  • Caring for the victims:
    • That’s a big issue. Where are they in their recovery, is it something they do/don’t want to talk about? Their feelings have to be considered, and considered more than the perpetrators.
  • So many people hear “forgive, forgive, forgive,” but what about the victims?
    • Craig states What is realistic for the victim? (From a book Craig read) The victim knew he wanted to and needed to forgive, but he knew his forgiveness wasn’t real. Finally, he told his parents and the authorities, and had to go through the whole process. It wasn’t until the sense of justice had been served that he felt like he could forgive.
    • Craig states It isn’t something that people can be told to do (forgive) it has to come from them, and that needs to be something they come to themselves.
    • Unconditional forgiveness – even God doesn’t do that. Some things cannot just be let go. And there are some things that.
  • There is a foundation that has been set up by the 3 ladies that have been doing the investigating. There is a sum of money that is there for the victims to reach out and be helped with funding for therapy. You can also donate to that.
  • Don’t find it appropriate to excommunicate people for speaking up about this issue (with CSA). Want to make sure that isn’t the case.
    • Woodstock convention issue – the friends felt it was retaliatory (it was shortened)
    • People have been mistreated, put out, perhaps wrongfully
  • Craig: there are people who have left, and those who have been driven out. And I don’t worry about those who have been driven out, because God knows their hearts.
    • I have to believe that if we’ve been mistreated and we take it well, God knows.
    • The only thing that will bring peace is that eternal perspective. And that doesn’t mean we don’t try to do the best we can while here on this Earth. I can’t speak for Canada or all the other places.
  • Triangulation by people in power – it’s a control and manipulation issue.
  • Worrying about punishment:
    • Examples of past eras of black stockings, checking men’s hair length at convention to get a haircut, etc.
    • If it’s a crime, take them out of fellowship. Beyond crimes, it bothers me that there’s punishment going on.
  • God knows how to correct people without hurting them and turning them away.
  • I know you said you don’t have the answers, but the things in the state that are under your (Craig’s) control are important.
    • Most people are here because they want to save this ship.
    • The gravity of this is a big deal – the FBI may be involved. Many people could go to federal prison. It’s a big deal.
  • A transcript will be released that is honest about what has gone on. Please make sure that this has been transcribed in a way that is transparent and kind.

Clint Bechdolt sermon at Walla Walla convention June 2023

WINGS Note: It is positive to read of a worker publicly recognising the problems that need to be confronted and resolved. The fellowship is not OK right now.


Have you ever had a friend that you really, really wanted to help, but you couldn’t? Sometimes there are just no words, nothing you can do. We know Jesus can help. I don’t know how, I can’t. My friend suffered horribly. One person gave my friend what I thought was good advice… “You’ve spent too much time pretending to be okay. You just need to be what you are.”

It’s possible to pretend that we’re okay, when things aren’t okay. We become like the Pharisees, like hypocrites. The leaven of the Pharisees is hypocrisy. We need to be real. Be honest. Don’t pretend like everything’s okay when it’s not.

Isaiah 1. There are times in the bible when individuals sinned and got off track. And there are times when God’s people as a whole got off track. This was one of those times. It was very dark. I feel like we’re in one of those times right now. We can’t just pretend everything’s okay. I’m going to read most of the chapter, starting in vs. 2 (read through to vs. 21)

vs. 14 Even their whole structure of worship and sacrifice became an abomination to God. I feel like this is the state of the kingdom right now. Pretending to be okay when we’re not okay. Our prayers, our testimonies, our sacrifices could be an abomination to God. So what do you do about it? vs. 16 The evil has to be dealt with.

Judges 19. I apologize in advance that this isn’t a positive message, or if I’m off base at all. We workers try to speak what’s from the heart of God, but I’m sometimes not sure what percentage actually is. But we try.

In Judges 19, there was a Levite who had a concubine. I don’t pretend to understand why God’s people would ever have a concubine, but he did. His concubine ran away to her father’s house. This Levite went to go get her back. The father plead that they’d stay another day, so they did. And then he asked if she could stay another day, and so they did. And then asked them to stay another day, and so on. I think it was the 6th day they finally left to go back home. I wonder if this father had some intuition that she wasn’t safe, and he wanted to protect her by keeping her there. But finally he let them go. They travelled, and needed to stop for the night, but they didn’t want to stop in the city of the Jebusites (vs. 11), so they kept travelling until they got to Gibeah, which was a city of the tribe of Benjamin, their brethren. I think they didn’t want to stop in the foreign land because they thought it wouldn’t be safe… that’s one thing, there’s certain things we expect of the world, or are cautious about, because it’s the world. But when we’re with those we trust, we let our guard down. Because we expect to be able to trust them. Someone invited them to stay in their house, but then some men came and wanted to abuse him. I’m not sure why, but he gave them his concubine instead. And then they abused her all night. And then after all that, he said to her “get up, get up”, as if she could after all of that. Is that what we say to a victim? “Get up, get up”? She died, and he cut up her body into twelve pieces and sent a piece to each of the tribes of Israel.

And then in vs. 30 it says “Consider it, take advice, and speak your minds”. That’s what we need to do… “consider it, take advice, and speak your minds”. Then there was an uprising. Vs. 2 of the next chapter says there were 400,000 men that came up. It wasn’t an uprising of rebellion, but an uprising of righteousness. They were hurting and sad. They were wanting to take action. They didn’t go with a wicked motive, but with a good and righteous motive.

Going forward, we need to live in reality. This has been my reality the last little while, and my friend’s reality. God lives in reality. It’s not all blessing and rainbows and sunshine. God lives in reality and we want to be where He is. I wish I could skip to Isaiah 40 where he says “Comfort ye, comfort ye my people”, but we’re not there yet. We need to be honest about where we’re at.

Senior citizen urges patience in reform of ministry

The letter in late March exposing the secret, evil life-style of Dean Bruer has opened the flood gates of complaints about the corruption in our ministry. Many are eager for prompt changes to be made. While legal issues must be dealt with immediately, issues of power and doctrine will unfortunately take more time. Many of our overseers are resisting any type of change to their power structure, and change can only be done after they have faced the legal system. We must first allow the judicial system to remove the abusers and those in authority who systematically covered up those abuses. Like the Canadian elder, I have chosen to remain anonymous to avoid excommunication until the current group of overseers have been cleansed or removed, as things could soon get very messy. I have realized for years that “Truth” is a mixture of God’s way and man’s rules, with that mixture varying from individual to individual.

The book The Life and Ministry of Edward Cooney 1867-1960 (available free online) provides valuable history on our ministry. It was written by a convert of Cooney and is probably biased towards him, and it may be biased against the other main character, William Irvine, but I do find it very informative. In 1899 Irvine and others left their preaching in “organized religions” to form the “Go Preacher” group.  By 1901 Cooney and Irvine were preaching together (workers came to US in 1903 and to Canada in 1904).

By 1907 Irvine was claiming to be the “living witness” meaning only those who professed through him or through one who had professed through Irvine could go to heaven. He was described as a dictator and a new pope. By 1914 Irvine was confronted about his weakness for women, and when asked to step aside as the leader and to remain in the ministry, he refused and left entirely. His lieutenants immediately started carving up the English-speaking world for their areas of command, using the same organizational structure that Irvine had ruled with. Cooney objected to the organizational structure and said that all should be led by God’s spirit. Cooney was finally excommunicated in 1928 for refusing to be in step with the other workers. He then preached among outcasts in the English-speaking world until his death; this part of the book left me with an empty feeling that something else was wrong.

It took only 8 years for what apparently started out right to become corrupted by ego and greed. This partially corrupted ministry has now gone on for 116 years, and it will take some time to change. God has immense patience and uses many tools, including man’s legal system, to do His work.

In the weeks following the letter about Dean Bruer, multiple workers in our region preached about the “authority of the ministry”, its justification and the need to maintain it. I assume those instructions came from our overseer, who rather than seeing the fallacy of pushing this authority chose instead to double down on the power structure. This current style of authority came not from God or Jesus, but from William Irvine. Matt 20:25-28 – Jesus warned against this very situation. Some overseers have been honest and spirit-led, some are now seeing the light and encouraging cleansing, and others will fight to the bitter end to maintain their control. Like others, I have professed and have been spiritually fed in an imperfect fellowship under a partially corrupt ministry. Therefore, I do not want to give this fellowship up or be forced out during this painful time of cleansing.

Even though not often used in meeting or in conversations, the key word is “control”. If the workers can convince us that they are the toll-booths on our way to heaven, they can control many aspects of our lives, including where we go to meeting, who we meet with, etc. Workers cannot control my relationship with God, but they can try to control how my spouse and I appear; therefore, the shallow emphasis on form and appearance. A form is necessary when a foundation is being formed. Once the foundation has solidified (Jesus) the forms are no longer needed and are removed. Forms are only left on if there is a low confidence in the material in the foundation (man’s rules).

If some workers think they can control people’s salvation, it is a small step from their point of view to take advantage sexually of someone lower than them. Instead all should esteem others better than themselves; we don’t go around abusing someone we esteem higher than ourselves. The current rash of sexual abuse cases stem from: 1) human nature; 2) an organizational structure that elevates the overseers and workers way above the friends; and 3) a culture of cover up that used to mean no earthly consequences.  Point 3 is currently changing thanks to efforts of many, including this website. Point 2 must change and change is painful. Point 1 will never change, although a correct ministry will result in more spirit-led decisions and less decisions made by human nature.

Some friends, several workers and many overseers have a lot to lose on this earth through this cleansing process, and they will resist in many ugly ways. Let the judicial system do the heavy lifting, placing several oversees and workers behind bars. Then the remaining ones should be more receptive to discussing with the friends a spirit-led ministry as taught by Jesus. An attempt at that discussion today might be counter-productive.

Overseer abuse of power

WINGS note: This letter was written by a very concerned friend.


After reading the most recent letter that captured so well the problem enshrined in exclusivity, I feel compelled to write. Silence at this point is complicity.

I applaud all those who have courageously shared their experiences as victims of abuse; sexual, physical, emotional and spiritual. We have heard from current and former workers, and current and former members of our fellowship. I say “our” as one who was raised going to meetings and has spent the last 30 years as an active participant.

How much longer is an open question. It is fully understandable that most, if not all who have shared their pain and their experiences choose to remain anonymous. I choose to sign my name to this letter. These are my thoughts and convictions, and mine alone.

To be clear, I am not a victim of abuse, at least not the most direct kind. But unlike many previous authors, I am angry.

I have brushed against abuse and abusers for my entire life, under the auspices of those entrusted with spreading the gospel, but did not know it. At least three known pedophiles spent significant time in my home as a child, teenager, young adult, and now as a father with my own children. None were known to me or my family, but all were known to the overseers at the time.

This only counts those that admitted their proclivities and crimes, not the generational monster that was Dean Bruer, who also spent a significant amount of time in our home, or any who have not yet been named and brought into the open. For a “never” event, that is far too frequent. It must also be acknowledged that what has been revealed in the past two months has been grudging at best, and had Dean not died, would not be known. That is inexcusable.

We keep hearing about the example of King David and giving grace to sinners as a way to pardon the repeated missteps in past and prior handling of abuse. Annaias and Saphira (Acts 5:1) are the examples we should be discussing. They intended good for the nascent Christian community by selling their property and donating the proceeds, but withheld money and lied, first by omission, then by commission when confronted. Both were struck down in that moment.

There are consequences for actions. I don’t pretend to know any person’s status with God, and believe that anyone can find and follow their own revelation and conviction. God is the final arbiter for all, but from a human perspective, nearly the entire current leadership has lost my respect and confidence.

As horrifying as the crimes of pedophilia and sexual abuse are, as tragic as it is that multiple workers and friends have endured their own emotional and spiritual abuse, as egregious as it is that endemic denial and deflection have pushed a Christian ideal into the realm of abuse, we are still discussing symptoms, not the root of the problem.

The foundational problem in our fellowship remains the insistence that we are the one true way, the only Christians doing it right. The most common term used to self-identify is “the Truth”, which says it all. This reeks of pride and self-righteousness. It also creates a clear and immediate in-group and out-group (with approximately 8 billion people in the out-group) and a moral and spiritual imperative.

I will go further than prior posters and say that as long as this pervasive and damaging doctrine exists, no substantive change is possible. It is not enough to say that it is spoken less frequently or directly, or hear it preached less forcefully from the platform at convention. It has clearly and cogently been spoken for generations, with concomitant and lasting damage. Redaction needs to be equally clear and forceful.

There is a legacy of sanctimony, hypocrisy, and refusal to allow change directly tied to this dogma, and a level of spiritual coercion that cannot be overstated. If salvation hangs in the balance, there is simply no choice–one belongs to this fellowship and toes the line, or one winds up in hell. The current crisis, the slowly unfolding nuclear implosion enveloping the church, is the fruit. Matthew 7 lays bare the truth–false teachings lead to bad fruit. As Matthew suggests, those trees need to be cut down and burned.

However, it is impossible to be an agent for change when no alternative exists. The level of change needed is more than structural, it is seismic. The ecumenical church that many of us wish for is so far from the current structure that it might as well be a fantasy. We need our own Martin Luther to nail his Ninety-Five Theses to the door of a church. But we don’t have a church building of course, another facet of which we are inordinately proud.

Second, as so many have pointed out, the pervasive denial of a power structure or hierarchy is almost as damaging, and a simple way to avoid responsibility. We are apparently not one body in Christ, but 18 geographic bodies (in the U.S. at least) with their own Ordnung, following a roughly similar tangent as Christians. Very simple way to pass the buck, and hyper-convenient way to pass abusers on without dealing with their actions.

 Our workers have the authority to assign location of fellowship, elders in those meetings, and who can or cannot take part. They have the authority to say who can and cannot take the emblems, the most direct and physical connection to Christ. They are the gateway to baptism, the closest thing we have to admission into the legacy of Jesus’ life. That is power, and when combined with a dogma that states we are God’s chosen people, it is a truly singular form of power. The overseers control every facet of the lives of those workers in their sphere of influence. They decide whom to allow to enter the ministry, where they labor, who their co-workers will be, and when/if they are dismissed from the ministry. That is clearly power.

In the meetings, the hierarchy is clear, with women at the bottom and men/elders on the next rung. Within the ministry, the hierarchy is also quite clear, with all women at the bottom, younger men on the next step up, and exclusively older/experienced men at the top. To deny this structure exists is disingenuous at best, outright malfeasance at worst. There is no system of feedback or accountability, so combined with a dash of narcissism, the result is a recipe for abuse of all flavors with no recourse.

I believe that the majority of those attending meetings are good and loving people with well-intentioned ideals. I believe the same can be said of the majority of workers, who are willing to give their lives in service to this ideal. I believe the current church structure has strayed so far from the stated ideal that it is untenable. I am angry and believe there is a silent majority in the church who are in accord but has no voice. Until the problem is named, change is not possible. Once named, change remains a far-off and potentially unreachable goal, but honesty is a start.

Jonathan Olson

May 28, 2023

Open letter from a group of professing mental health professionals

Our purpose is to help our fellowship move forward in the spirit of healing.

Who we are:

We are experienced professionals living throughout the States and Provinces of North America.  We are psychologists, clinical social workers and professional counsellors who specialize in child and adolescent counselling, marriage and family counselling, trauma counselling, sex therapy, school psychology and generalists in mental health and addiction therapy.  Some of us are in private practice, some work for school systems, some are in public health, some specialize in the foster care and adoption process, some work in inpatient psychiatric settings, and some have worked in forensics and the criminal justice system.

How we can help:

We can help with mental health referrals and provide resources specific to our areas of expertise. We are not law enforcement or investigators, and we cannot engage in those processes. 

We have/can:

  • Answer mental health questions.
  • Advise on Child Sexual Abuse laws.
  • Advise on duty to report and reporting procedures.
  • Provide Child Sexual Abuse/Sexual Assault information and resources for these requests.
  • Consult with workers on disclosure protocols.
  • Assist in making referrals to mental health professionals.

Resource website currently being built.

Contact us:

professingtherapistsgroup@gmail.com

Comprehensive letter from Perry Pearson to Dakota friends

From: Perry Pearson [email address redacted]
Date: Wed, May 24, 2023  
Subject: Letter to Dakota friends
To: Perry Pearson [email address redacted]
Cc: Paul Haakenson [email address redacted]

Dear North & South Dakota Friends,

We would like to share with you what we discussed at our staff meeting on May 19th. The information below has been reviewed and accepted by all workers on our staff.

Several topics we covered and will discuss here are as follows:

  • Reporting concerns of child sexual abuse (CSA)
  • Guidelines regarding sex offenders’ attendance in meetings
  • Current and additional child safety training for the Dakota staff
  • Accountability for workers’ behavior in the home

Since being notified in March of Dean Bruer’s crimes, the Dakota workers have received no allegations of child sexual abuse/sexual abuse (CSA/SA) against anyone in the ministry in the Dakotas. We are aware this is a widespread issue with allegations presented in other states. We encourage any victims to reach out to available resources to begin your journey toward healing. The Dakota workers support you and will respect your confidentiality in this process.

A few available resources:

National Suicide & Crisis Hotline: 988 (Call or Text)

RAINN (National Anti-Sexual Violence Organization): 800-656-HOPE (4673) or online.rainn.org (Live Chat)

These hotlines can assist you in connecting with appropriate resources in your area.

Reporting Concerns of Child Sexual Abuse (CSA):

The safety of children is everyone’s business. Mandated reporters are required by law to report any reasonable suspicions of child abuse or neglect to the authorities. Anyone can and should report reasonable suspicions of child abuse or neglect. According to the laws in North and South Dakota, workers are not considered mandated reporters. However, we intend to respond as mandated reporters and report all suspicions and concerns of CSA. We were advised to report suspicions and concerns to Child Protective Services so that the report is brought to the correct people and the appropriate action can be taken immediately.

RAINN Hotline (They will direct you to the appropriate reporting jurisdiction):800-656-HOPE (4673)
North Dakota Child Abuse & Neglect Reporting (M-F 8am-5pm): 833-958-3500
South Dakota Child Protective Services (M-F 8am-5pm):877-244-0864

If you believe a child is in IMMEDIATE danger, call 911

Guidelines Regarding Sex Offenders’ Attendance in Meetings:  

We will continue to work within full compliance of each offender’s parole restrictions within North and South Dakota. Each situation varies and has its own concerns; however, there are a few general guidelines we will be putting in place, in addition to any legal restrictions that may be associated with their case:

  • There will be NO registered sex offenders at any ND/SD convention.
  • The people in the meeting will be consulted before an offender attends. No one will be in meeting with an offender against their wishes.

Current and Additional Child Safety Training for the Dakota Staff:

We are all helping each other be accountable. We do not need to live in fear, but we do need to be aware. We discussed several different child safety programs that would be a benefit for us to take.

  • All of the ND/SD workers are certified in the Ministry Safe program. This has been ongoing since 2010. It is renewed every 2-3 years.
  • All of the ND/SD workers will take the ND mandated reporter training by May 31, 2023 and retake it every 2-3 years.
  • All of the ND/SD workers will take the Youth Protection Training offered by Boy Scouts of America before June 8, 2023 and retake it every 2-3 years.
  • All workers transferring to our staff from other areas or starting in the work will take the above training also.

We are also asking all of our elders and wives to take the Ministry Safe course. [names redacted] in Sioux Falls will be managing the course for the elders and any of the friends that wish to take it. If you are interested in taking the course, please contact them at [email address redacted].

We invite anyone who would like to educate themselves to also take advantage of these resources.

Ministry Safe: https://ministrysafe.com
North Dakota Mandated Reporter Training: https://mandatedreporter.pcand.org/index.html
Youth Protection Training: https://www.scouting.org/training/youth-protection

Accountability for Workers’ Behavior in the Home:

We want to do all we can to be a safe ministry.

  • We recognize that it is safest when two (or three) workers work together in a field.  We commit to doing this in our work except in rare, unavoidable circumstances.
  • Workers will not purposefully seek to be alone with children in secluded areas.
  • Workers’ activities with minors will be with parental consent or involvement.
  • Workers will be respectful of personal property.
  • If you, for any reason, are uncomfortable with a worker in your home, please communicate with us and alternative arrangements will be made.

We cannot change what has been done in the past, but we can do our very best to improve the future. It is important to us that you are comfortable with us in your homes and with your families. Please communicate with us regarding your comfort level and concerns, and know we will listen and respect your boundaries.

Things we would like to encourage you:

  • If you observe a worker alone too much, please approach them and/or alert other workers.
  • If you see inappropriate behavior in a worker, please tell someone you trust.
  • If you are not comfortable with what has been asked of you, say NO.
  • If you see that any of the items outlined above are not being adhered to, please tell someone you trust.

Thank you for sharing your concerns with us so that actions can be taken to alleviate them. We have outlined initial steps to address the CSA/SA issues. We realize it is just a start. We are committed to follow through and know there are more conversations to have and actions to take. Please continue sharing with us and making suggestions so that the ministry and the meetings can be a safe place for all.

Sincerely,

Your staff of workers in the Dakotas

Emails to/from Merlin Affleck and Michael Hassett re Burkinshaw and McChesney allegations

WINGS Note: This is a series of emails between Cynthia Liles, Merlin Affleck and Michael Hassett, with an introduction by Cynthia.


Hello everyone,

As you may know, we’ve been working diligently behind the scenes to protect the community and expose wrong doings. Sadly, in many instances when we are advocating on behalf of survivors, our voices are not being heard by those currently in authority. We feel the pattern of stonewalling by leadership continues even today, as evidenced by the following email exchange. After two months of working on this crisis, it is evident that new leaders who are willing to be ethical, transparent, caring, and operate with integrity are necessary.

We need your help!

Please use your voices to demand accountability and change from leadership.

Please note that as of 5/28/23 there has been no response from either Merlin or Michael.

Forwarded Conversation

Subject: Walter Burkinshaw/Leanne McChesney

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From: Cynthia Liles <email redacted>
Date: Sat, May 20, 2023 at 10:14 AM
To: Merlin Affleck < email redacted >, Michael Hassett < email redacted >
Cc: Lauren Rohs < email redacted >, Sheri Autrey < email redacted >

Dear Merlin and Michael,

Merlin, as you know, the Walter Burkinshaw victims have been very distressed to learn that Walter is still allowed in meetings. There are criminal cases pending against him for pedophila, which you are aware of. Last week I left a detailed message for Ben Collyer, who I understand is one of the workers in Walter’s field, explaining how distressing it is to the victims to know Walter is in meetings. I have not heard back.

Society expects institutions to keep their communities safe — especially the children. You may say, “Oh, he’s an old man and he’s in a wheelchair,” or “he’s not in meetings with children.” To the victims, that shows you are standing with the perpetrator and not with them. In addition, I have worked on cases where perpetrators were still abusing children well into their 80’s. Pedophilia is not something that goes away with old age.

Merlin, I also understand that you may have a written confession from Walter. Any and all written documentation from Walter admitting his crimes is key evidence and should be turned over to law enforcement as soon as possible. If it is true that you have such a statement from Walter and you haven’t turned it over to law enforcement, it begs the question: Why are you protecting a pedophile?

I also understand Leanne McChesney is attending meetings. She also has criminal charges pending for sex crimes against children.

It is highly probable that Walter and Leanne have sexually abused other children that have not yet come forward. The friends have a right to know about the charges against alter and Leanne. Please do the right thing and notify the friends in Canada and anywhere else Walter and Leanne have been.

Best,

Cynthia

Cynthia L. Liles
Private Investigator
liles.cynthia@gmail.com
503-334-6866
lilesinvestigations.com

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From: Merlin Affleck < email redacted >
Date: Sat, May 20, 2023 at 6:23 PM
To: Cynthia Liles < email redacted >

Hello Cynthia,

I do not have any written confession from Walter. It was at my encouragement that he willingly went to the RCMP himself 2 or 3 years ago and spoke to them directly. Be assured that his case has been in professional hands for a long time already.

Yours truly, Merlin

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From: Cynthia Liles [email redacted]
Date: Sat, May 20, 2023 at 7:23 PM
To: Merlin Affleck < email redacted >, < email redacted >
Cc: Sheri Autrey < email redacted >, Lauren Rohs < email redacted >

Hello Merlin,

You state you encouraged Walter to turn himself in to the RCMP two or three years ago. He must have confessed to you? There are two NEW cases filed against Walter. Your account of his verbal confession would be key evidence. Will you agree to contact the RCMP in Vernon and Wainwright to give a statement?

You did not address the other subject of my email. Will you agree to notify the friends that Walter and Leanne have charges against them for pedophilia and remove them from meetings?

Thank you,

Cynthia

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From: michael hassett < email redacted >

Date: Mon, May 22, 2023 at 3:29 PM

To: Cynthia Liles < email redacted >

Hello Cynthia,

Our friends in the area where Walter lives are all aware of the accusations against him. They were informed when he first moved to the town.

Michael

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From: Cynthia Liles < email redacted >

Date: Mon, May 22, 2023 at 9:19 PM

To: michael hassett < email redacted >, Merlin Affleck < email redacted >
Cc: Lauren Rohs < email redacted >, Sheri Autrey < email redacted >,
Darryl Doland < email redacted >

Hello Michael and Merlin,

I’m sorry — there must be some confusion. I didn’t ask if the friends in Walter’s area were aware of the accusations against Walter. I was letting you know that it is very distressing to his victims to know that he is still attending meetings. Neither one of you have acknowledged in your replies that this news may be upsetting to the victims and neither one of you have asked what you can do for the victims. That tells me your focus is not on the victims. In fact, it tells me you could care less about the victims. If you cared about victims, you would notify the friends in Canada of the pending charges against Walter and Leanne and ask victims to come forward

Merlin, you say you had Walter turn himself into law enforcement a few years ago. I’ve read the minutes of your April 6, 2023 meeting in Kelowna, B.C. You acknowledge Walter committed crimes. I understand he confessed to you. Do you realize Walter denied everything to law enforcement? It dawned on me after our last email exchange that if he had truly confessed when you sent him to law enforcement, he would have already been charged and most likely entered into a plea deal. I’ve confirmed that did not happen because he denied everything.

So, again, are you willing to give a statement to law enforcement in the new cases that have been filed? If not, why not? Your actions are very confusing to me. I do not understand why you would choose to stand by a pedophile instead of the victims who were innocent young children when they were sexually abused by their overseer — the most trusted position in the hierarchy of the Truth. I also noticed in your minutes that you felt Walter’s crimes were on the “low end” of the crime scale on a scale of 1-10. The actual act of sex abuse against a child has absolutely nothing to do with the trauma response. I have worked on hundreds of these cases and have witnessed this phenomenon many, many times. One child who is anally raped can have less of a trauma response than that of a child fondled by the same perpetrator. Again, the actual act has no correlation to the trauma response. It is not up to us to determine the severity of trauma inflicted on victims.

Cynthia —

Cynthia L. Liles
Private Investigator
liles.cynthia@gmail.com
503-334-6866
lilesinvestigations.com

Ex-worker shares: Resources for understanding abuse in church and institutional responses to abuse

I am extremely weary of church leadership’s hodgepodge response to the multi-generational patterns of abuse, denial of abuse, vague apologies when abuse is glaringly obvious, suppression of witnesses, and victim shaming.  

I am sick of communications that offer a sentence or two about the victim(s), if any, while providing paragraph(s) about the goodness of perpetrators or the need to accommodate and/or not judge them.  

And while I initially appreciated that some in the ministry had been taking training about CSA, I am tired of that being used as cover. Many recent communications clearly demonstrate that leaders do not understand or believe the training they have supposedly kept current. Ten to fifteen years of 1-hr training, taken every other year, equals 5 to 7.5 hours of training, on average. That, plus any other training taken, is clearly NOT enough for some. “Policies are what you DO, not what you SAY you do” and some leaders can’t even get to the SAY part.  (https://ministrysafe.com/the-safety-system/monitoring-oversight/ ).  

Training should be one part of a comprehensive, nationwide plan. There are resources for getting this together, such as the proactive 5 Part Safety System that can be developed with and reviewed by MinistrySafe Institute. I’m very grateful for those who are DOing and have taken this training seriously in their day-to-day lives, but leadership needs to drop the “we’re not an organization” act and get organized on this issue. Not every expert we consult has to be in the fellowship, and there’s plenty of money out there to pay for services.  

For those like me who are struggling with these frustrations, there are resources that help to make sense of some of the deeply human (i.e., not very spirit-led) responses to abuse that we have been subject to. Spoiler alert: we’re just like all the other churches, or worse.

For those overseers and ministers asking for prayers and direction and feedback because you “want to get this right,” I pray that you have enough humility and honesty to learn from a Christian woman with short hair and jewellery. Her name is Diane Langberg. She has studied abuse in churches across the world. From her work you will see that the patterns of abuse, cover-ups and neglect of victims that have been laid bare in our fellowship are the same patterns revealed in other institutions that most of you would call “false churches.” Diane is a psychologist and was studying PTSD before it had a name.  

Redeeming Power: Understanding Authority and Abuse in the Church https://www.amazon.com/Redeeming-Power-Understanding-Authority-Church/dp/1587434385

This video is another option that covers some of the book topics. I implore you to watch it and take it seriously:

A second book by Wade Mullen is also useful. Wade’s PhD was focused on institutional response to abuse, with a focus on churches. The desire to protect the image of an institution or a powerful person at the cost of victims is a straight-up human response. It is not a spirit-led response. Especially important, this book describes what an effective apology looks like. Overseer letters I’ve seen, if they offer an apology, mostly look like apoloscuses rather than the type of apology that leads to healing.

Something’s Not Right: Decoding the Hidden Tactics of Abuse–and Freeing Yourself from Its Power https://www.amazon.com/Somethings-Not-Right-Decoding-Abuse/dp/1496444701

A third book, “When Narcissism Comes to Church,” gets personal. First, it challenges us to look inside for the elements of narcissism that each of us carry. It asks us to see the narcissist as a wounded person. But it also calls out the real damage done by individuals in our midst who carry and act on their narcissistic traits. We must not ignore that damage.  

Further, the chapters on narcissistic SYSTEMS clearly describe the dangers of swimming in the waters of “we are the only true Christians.” First, this message is very attractive to narcissistic personalities. Second, a power structure that has no accountability (especially when leadership pretends that hierarchy doesn’t exist, even, allegedly, when under oath) is an absolute dream scenario for a narcissistic person. All of the above puts the narcissistic preacher in the role of feeding ON the sheep, not feeding the sheep. I personally witnessed this type of behavior while in the ministry. I believe the whole staff knew about the damaging behavior of our overseer, but no one could really challenge this “anointed one.” I realize now that I experienced trauma under this leadership, as did others. I am still recovering. Some mainstream churches now actively screen for narcisstic personality traits in pastors. Perhaps we could learn from their wisdom.  

When Narcissism Comes to Church: Healing Your Community From Emotional and Spiritual Abuse https://www.amazon.com/When-Narcissism-Comes-Church-Community-ebook/dp/B07ZG79HHF

In conclusion, there are many good people and ministers in the fellowship. There are ministers who truly love, serve, and crave positive change. I believe many sincere prayers have been made for guidance in the past and are still being made to find a better path forward. But I DO NOT believe many of us are even at a point of being completely honest about the crisis of abuse (of all kinds) in our group.

The ministry, despite being freed from day-to-day jobs to focus wholly on spirituality, completely whiffed on interpretation of certain scriptures about dealing with problems within the fellowship. For generations, people have been discouraged, and in some cases outright forbidden, from seeking legal and/or professional intervention. We are now told “go to the authorities” and “seek professional help” as if those instructions have always been church policy. Let us be honest – giving that advice without an apology and/or context is gaslighting. That change in stance is a reinterpretation of scripture after GENERATIONS of getting it wrong. And only STARTING to get it right 10-15 years ago because of the threat of law enforcement and, most likely, pressure from the friends.

It is time for the ministry to demonstrate love by LEARNING AND LEADING rather than being forced to do the bare minimum for victims of all kinds of abuse. It is time for the quiet bystanders, including some of my respected former co-workers, to speak up to the powerful. There are many of us out here that have your backs. It is time to stop pretending we don’t know about bad actors. It is time to stop the revisionist history. It is time to stop the self-deception and willful ignorance. It is time to apologize specifically and meaningfully to current and past victims. It is time to recognize that it is not love or mercy to put an abuser in a position where they can easily abuse again. It is time to recognize that it is evil to merely note the wounds of victims without working to provide healing. It is time to see ourselves in the priest and the Levite, when we should be doing the work of the Samaritan. It is time to stop using David’s murderous and adulterous failings as an excuse for perpetrators while simultaneously holding victims to the standard of a younger David who wouldn’t act against an anointed one. It is time to accept that, through abuse, denial of justice, and misuse of certain scriptures, we have driven many people out of the fellowship. It is time to stop judging victims and start holding ourselves, including the most powerful among us, accountable. It is time for serious, structural change.

Anonymous


About the author:

I spent several years in the work and I am now a parent. I’m sad that this letter must be shared anonymously, but it is a necessary precaution for my family at this time. I greatly respect the bravery of others who share their names. I pray for the day when open conversation around difficult issues is the norm.