Australian support group created

The Brave Truth Australia
PO Box 829
NORTH LAKES QLD 4509
Email: support@thebravetruthaustralia.com

30 June 2023

Dear Australian Workers,

It is with heavy hearts we have need to write this letter.

As you are aware, a large number of Child Sexual Abuse (CSA) and Sexual Assault (SA) perpetrators, including numerous current and former workers, have been exposed in the past three months particularly in the USA and Canada. Over 400 perpetrators have been reported to an International Hotline set up on March 23rd, 2023, by PI Cynthia Illes, Lauren Rohs and Sheri VanDermyden Autrey. A significant number of these have been reported from Australia.

We can no longer see alleged or convicted perpetrators meet in Fellowship Meetings, Gospel Meetings. Special Meetings or Conventions and say nothing. We can no longer tolerate adult victim-survivors and children suffering while perpetrators are protected.

Some of these perpetrators are sitting with our relatives, and children we know. Every family deserves to know their children are safe when around Workers & Friends and sadly, currently, many are not. There is a tidal wave that has hit our shores, and action must be taken.

We thought that the 60M program in 2019 may have resulted in significant change, but unfortunately it hasn’t:

  • Worker codes of conduct mean nothing unless they are signed and enforced;
  • Authorities have advised that some workers do not have working with children checks;
  • Some perpetrators on the sex offender register continue to attend meetings;
  • There has been no attempt for the fellowship to join the National Redress Scheme;
  • The child safety policy/code of conduct has not been rolled out consistently across all jurisdictions;
  • Some Overseers do not respond to emails/letters from victims of historical abuse in the fellowship;
  • In general, perpetrators are protected whilst victims are shunned, and their distress is minimalised;

We are happy to work collaboratively with you, however, if that does not occur, we will press forward together with a good number of Friends who are supporting these much-needed changes. There is, quite simply, no place for any acceptance of this criminal behaviour.

Fortunately, we all have access to accurate information at our fingertips of up-to-date convictions and reports of alleged abusers, which allows us to act and to keep children safe. We also want to let you know that we have now set up a public Facebook page called ‘The Brave Truth Australia’.

An Australian Hotline will be operational by early July 2023 and a website will also be launched. All calls to the Hotline will be completely confidential. The information provided is not committed to further action but stored for information-gathering purposes. We will take the caller’s statement, vet the information with the authorities, and add the perpetrator’s name to the significant confidential list we already have. Victim-survivor information will never be shared without explicit permission. We will always assist them in finding support, resources to help and aid them with reporting a crime, should they wish to do so.

If we are in the position of having three victim-survivors of the same alleged perpetrator, or court documents alleging CSA of one victim, we will write to the Overseer and Workers in the field to notify of the perpetrator and where they live, with current vetted details of allegations (as advised by the authorities). As mandated reporters, you may be required to immediately stop them from attending Fellowship Meetings, Gospel Meetings/Missions, Conventions & Special Meetings and any other church gatherings where children may be present. You should seek your own legal advice concerning your obligations under the relevant law in each state.

As this will be a transparent process, we will advise online (via social media and planned Website) as appropriate, together with the Overseers response (if any) and encourage anyone who has information concerning named person, to contact the Hotline/Authorities that are working on the case.

In the very unfortunate circumstance that the alleged perpetrator may be an active Worker or Overseer, they should be removed from the Work immediately and not be in a position where they are able to give public address or voice, or able to stay in any household where a child under the age of 18 resides or visits. When a Worker is removed from the Work, whoever they stay with should be notified of the seriousness of the allegations. To avoid potential legal liability, we would recommend to you that all alleged perpetrators (Workers, Elders & Friends) should not attend Fellowship Meetings, Gospel Meetings/Missions, Conventions & Special Meetings, or any other church gatherings, social or otherwise, where children may be present, until the allegations are deemed cleared or unfounded by the Police. A very strong stance of zero-tolerance needs to be taken towards Child Sexual Abuse and Sexual Abuse.

Please feel free to contact us by return email. We would be pleased to communicate directly with any or all of you towards a common goal and our only motive, a child safe environment.

Sincerely,

[signatures removed]

Vianne Hills                      Jillian Hishon                    Ross Bowden

For and on behalf of many Friends, Parents & Grandparents.

Illinois victim’s communications with workers

I am a victim of a sexual predator in Central Illinois who was a part of my family’s life, someone that I felt I could trust, someone that I thought cared for and loved my family, someone that my family trusted.

Yes, it was many years ago but anytime through the years, when I have had to be in his presence in a gathering or meeting, I felt like I was being seduced. I felt like he was looking at me and saying do you remember what I did to you? It was hard to be in a meeting with him and here him speak or pray.

Immediately after the first time he touched me I wanted to tell someone, but who? I wanted to scream at his wife and ask her how she could be so blind to what he was doing right in front of her but I didn’t. So I avoided him at all costs and 2 years later I quit going to meeting because I wanted to wear jeans. ‘I was just being a rebellious teenager.’ I pushed it all into the back of my mind.

I professed again a few years later and married an abusive narcissistic man and I lost my complete identity when I was married to him. I literally no longer had an opinion. It’s hard to explain the feeling of being so empty. When I suggested to him that maybe we should offer our home for a bible study or Sunday meeting since I thought it had never been offered as a possibility, he told me that the workers had come to him about having a meeting in our home but he said we couldn’t because I was not worthy of having a meeting in our home. I confirmed this with the worker that was in our field at the time.

Another example of the mental abuse was, I asked him to just tell me one thing he liked about me, that he didn’t have to tell me he loved me but just one thing that he liked. He looked at me in silence and said nothing. So with this kind of a life, the abuse I had as a child, was deeply suppressed even through my therapy during and after I left the marriage.

During the 22 years of marriage and since, I have had to be in my abuser’s presence on occasion and nothing has changed. The last time I saw him, it was the same seducing look, the same ‘do you remember what I did to you look in his eyes’. But still, I suppressed and pushed the thoughts out of my mind as quickly as I could and avoided shaking his hand after meeting if at all possible.

When I heard about the life of DB and then all of the horrible things that were coming out about so many, the memories of my abuse came flooding back to the forefront of my mind. Memories I never wanted to think about again. I didn’t want to hurt his wife or children by revealing anything; thinking it was so long ago. I felt if others came forward and needed support, I would be there for them to comfort if I could. Once the memories were back though I could not stop them. Continually new memories surface of what he did and said to me.

The rest of my story is in the emails to Matt Jensen attached. At this time I am remaining anonymous.


My Communication to Matt Jensen regarding Harold Brown in Central Illinois
(Jon mentioned in the emails is Jon Knockenmus)

Fri, Jun 9, 2023
Hi Matt
I understand from Jon that Harold has been removed from meetings.
Craig Winquist sent an email in Missouri regarding another case that was made known at the meeting last Sunday afternoon also. Since he sent out a communication regarding this case, I am struggling on why this is not happening in regard to Harold Brown. I gathered from Jon there is not an urgency to send a communication to the worker staff in Illinois regarding Harold Brown to be shared with all friends in the state of Illinois. It is very important for people victimized by others that it is known; that people in other areas can assume that the person is just not going to meeting anymore or for wrong rumors to be spread.

This afternoon, with the help of an expert in this I have done slight modifications to Craig’s well written letter and pasted it below. Jon had said you have so much on your plate and did not know when you would or if you would be sending a communication out. Rather than ‘re-invent the wheel’, a modification of a letter / email already sent would suffice but is needed. The words changed were specifically changed due to the immediate triggers of people who are victims and correct wording (i.e. alleged, allegations) recommended by the expert in child sexual abuse that I am working with.

I hope you understand that once the door opened that what was done to me was not anything that was my fault or that this was not isolated to me, the memories I had pushed out of my conscience mind have come flooding back and I have already started working with a counselor. Being raised going to meetings and this being the very foundation of everything I have ever believed to be right and now the exposure of all that is coming out is like an earthquake.

I have pasted below the email content that was written by Craig with the few revisions that make it pertinent to Harold Brown. I did this in hopes you would copy and paste it to an email to your staff in Illinois to be sent to all friends in their fields.
Thank you for sending a communication.
Signature of writer removed.

This is the email I included and was asking for Matt to send to the Illinois workers to be shared with all of the friends in their fields: (Matt did not comply)

Subject: To Illinois Friends

To Whom it may concern:

In the interest of the safety of our children we have a zero tolerance policy. In the best interest of all, we need to make our friends aware whenever we know that there is an alleged sexual predator who has been in our midst and is currently active in our fellowship. This helps us to be responsible to each other and especially to our children. When this is known they will not be allowed to attend any meetings in person. If they travel and spend time in different areas this suspension applies to any meeting anywhere, not only their home area.

We have learned and need to share that Harold Brown has several allegations of pedophilia and legal cases have been opened. Because this has come to light we have asked him not to attend in person meetings anywhere. This restriction is effective immediately.

We want to encourage any victims of sexual assault to come forward no matter who the abuser was. Please report it to the proper legal authorities. It would be good also to let your local workers know, so they can make necessary adjustments for the local meetings.

The Illinois Abuse Hotline is 1.800.25.ABUSE or for non-emergency you can report in Illinois at https://childabuse.illinois.gov. Another helpful source is to use the hot line …. (503-386-4634). This hot line will notify workers about the sexual predator and provide guidance for therapy if needed. Another source the RAIIN hotline (1-800-656-4673) and the suicide hotline (988) for anyone in crisis.

 Sincerely yours,


On Jun 19, 2023, at 12:43 PM

Good Afternoon Matt and Jon

I find it very odd that I have not heard from either of you in response to my email and I have found it very disturbing that it appears there is an effort to keep it quiet that Harold Brown has allegations against him. I have also been made aware of other cases that are being ignored/not addressed/brushed under the rug etc. in Illinois.

I am questioning your motive in this. You may be thinking you are wanting to protect the fellowship – but this is only in man’s eyes of those who do not want to know the truth of what is going on. All will be revealed. In God’s all seeing eye, He is seeing what is going on and always has. He knows the real motive in your heart(s) on why you are choosing to hush people from telling who has allegations. Galations 6:7-8 comes to mind “Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting.” Paul was very direct in his letters on very sensitive subjects also. There was no brushing things under the rug.

Having two young sister workers go with you to meet with Harold Brown and then having these young sister workers have to call and tell the friends that Harold was being removed from meetings was shocking to me. Harold is a predator of women. Did you even consider that he possibly would have made these young sister workers uncomfortable or possibly even made inappropriate comments or actions towards them? Did you give them the choice on whether they wanted to be in his presence for this conversation? Of course, I do not expect an answer to these questions because you have not responded to my previous email, but I sure hope it is giving you something to seriously think about and consider.

It is very obvious God is working to reveal corruption to make His people turn to Him in these times. As I shared with Jon on a call, this is not the first time I have been shunned and ignored by the ministry. I went through this in 2007 when I finally got up the courage to leave an abusive marriage. I much appreciated Jon’s kind words when I shared this with him. There is much coming to light not just in the fellowship but in the world as a whole. There is reason to believe based on historical timelines that between now and the end of 2023 – and possibly before the end of this month of June, there will be some shaking in all of the world by God. Proverbs 16:18 “Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall.” We would not want to be those that are too proud or having a haughty spirit in these times.

God’s Truth will prevail and the real protection of the fellowship is in an honest and upright ministry and people.

I pray for you that you will seek God’s direction and only His. Matt. 5:13-16 comes to mind as I am writing this email…”Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? It is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men. Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hid. Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.”

It has been very real to me that God is seeking for His people to glorify HIm, to praise Him and to seek only Him for direction. Light dispels the darkness – it does not cover up or hide the wrongs.

Again I plead with you and pray you will seek God’s direction and remember it is only what God knows that matters and in the end He will reveal all.

In the name of Jesus I pray His will to be done on earth as it is in Heaven…
Signature of writer removed


On Mon, Jun 19, 2023 at 1:53 PM Matthew Jensen

Hi recipient name removed

Thank you for reaching out. Could I get your phone number? I will call you, if that is okay with you.

Matthew Jensen


Email sent on Wednesday, June 21, 2023
Hi Matt and Jon
Thank you for each of you attempting to reach out to me.

Recap –

  • June 4 – I shared at the Missouri meeting that I am a victim of a man in the fellowship
  • June 6 – Jon ‘Cold Called’ me – his words not mine; I shared my story regarding Harold; he said since I was an adult it was up to me to report to the police if I wanted legal action to be taken. I told him at this time, I just wanted the right thing to be done regarding Harold.
  • June 6 or 7 – Jon called me back and said he is a mandatory reporter and he had called Cass County police and had spoken with Chief Shumate and a case had been created; I asked about Harold being removed from meeting and I was told you would have to figure out how to handle that (paraphrasing)
  • June 8 – I texted Jon and said I was struggling that Harold was still in meetings since Craig Winquist had dealt quickly with Richard Simpson in KC and this case was made know at the same time that I shared my story. Jon called me within 30 minutes of my text and said that you(both) didn’t want to do anything that would jeopardize the case. He then called back later and said one of you had spoken with the Chief and confirmed removing Harold from meeting would not jeopardize anything legally but that Matt was having a hard time finding a man worker to join him in this communication to Harold and that Matt did not want to go alone to communicate this but he assured me it would take place in the next couple of days.
  • June 9 – I received a call from Jon that Matt, Dana and Abigail went to Harold and Jane’s to tell them Harold was removed from meetings. Jon’s words – Harold did not act surprised but Jane did not act like she knew anything.
  • June 9 – I heard from someone in the Springfield area they received a call from Dana and how sorry they felt for her because she was having such a hard time even sharing the information.
  • June 9 – I sent my first email to both of you (in this email string)
  • June 19 – After no response or acknowledgement I sent my second email to you (in this email string)
  • June 19 – Jon tried to call me shortly after I sent the email . I do appreciate this promptness. As you know I did not answer. Jon then sent a text with details regarding the legal status, due process etc regarding the case. I am confused why this was even brought up in response to my email because nothing in my email was regarding the legal status.
  • June 19 – I responded to Jon’s text “It has been moved to a state level. My concern is not the legal status”.
  • June 19 – Matt then sent me an email asking me for my phone number so he could call me. (in this email string)

I did not respond until now…
This brings us to today… June 21

First of all – I know both of you are in direct communication with each other about this so there is no reason that Jon could not give Matt my phone number.

Secondly – I am in contact with others and I have heard things (hmmm gossip and heresay comes from not sending a formal communication)

I am now even more disturbed because I have reason to believe that it is very possible more information was divulged to Harold about the reporting victim than should have been. He and his wife are telling people it was 50 years ago and it is nothing, AND that it was taken care of.

 IF it was 50 years ago, it wasn’t me, so who was that victim?

AND I now know there were many after me that he victimized and that Barry Barkley and Jim Holt knew about this when an elder in the area came forward to Jim asking for something to be done about Harold approximately 25 years ago. [13 words recacted] Nothing was done. No one was warned and he was not reported.

A personal segway… I have minimized what has been done to me all my life – by him, by a smooth talking professing but extremely narcissistic husband for 22 years and then shunned by the workers and most of the friends in the area after I got up the courage to leave him. The only thing that gave me the courage to leave was because I started to observe the same treatment towards my daughter. So the courage wasn’t even for myself.

Was the abuse by Harold the cause of why I fell in love and married an abusive man; Was it the reason I never valued myself or that my opinion mattered? I don’t know – what I do know is I have paid for a lot of therapy over the years and I have started talking with a therapist again. But most of all I have read my Bible and prayed more than I ever have in my life these last several months that God would give me the words to speak, that He would guide me and direct my steps. As I told Jon the first time we spoke on the phone – I had zero intention of saying one thing at the meeting in Missouri. I had an hour drive that day alone in the car to go to that meeting and I prayed out loud the whole way saying to God that I didn’t want to say anything but if He wanted me to that He would just put the words in my mouth, that He would give me the message that I should say. It did not cross my mind while I was praying that it would be to tell anyone publicly about being a victim. My thoughts were all on that God could give me the words to bring encouragement and cause workers and friends to turn to God – to be aligned with Him in all of this turmoil and let Him reveal and cleanse. When it came out of my mouth at the meeting that I am a victim, I was very distressed because now it was out and I would have to face all of it again. It was easier when it was my secret and I could push the memories out of my mind.

It’s so real to me, God knows all, we have no secrets, Harold has no secrets before God, you have no secrets before God. If we are fooling ourselves that hiding secrets from man AND NOT DEALING WITH THEM is safe, we are oh so wrong. I know for me I don’t want to be standing before God on the judgement day with a wrong I may have done to someone and not dealt with it and then He will bring judgement on that day. If the distress I am facing now can help any of the other victims to come forward and/or turn to God, if it can help Harold to face what he has done to so many people and gain the victory through God, if it can help him to really repent for the wrongs he has done, it will be worth it.

When I last spoke to Chief Schumate on Monday, June 19 and he advised it would have to be at the state level, he was quite alarmed that you have not communicated to all of the church. I told him that you, Matt, had two young woman workers with you when Harold was told and that you then put the burden on them to only verbally tell the people where Harold went to meeting. I told the Chief that you, Matt, told people in the meeting in Chicago to not mention names when someone mentioned Harold’s name. I told him that there are fellowship meetings all over the world and this is a global issue. I told him I am like a piece of sand in the scheme of the bigger problem. I told the Chief that you have not personally provided or enforced a written communication to the people all over your jurisdiction to be advised about the allegations against Harold Brown. I told him about conventions coming up and that really if Harold showed up at Seneca Convention or Brownstown Convention, and maybe even Mt. Sterling Convention, it would be likely that no one would treat him any differently or ask him to leave because most wouldn’t even know about it.

It is evident you both are not wanting anything to be put in writing, even in a response to my emails or texts (i.e. when I texted Jon about getting Harold out of the meetings on June 8, I got a phone call not a text response). Everything has been verbal without witness.

Therefore, my decision is going forward, any communication will be in writing or on a recorded line with a 3rd party present of my choosing. You have to understand there is no trust in either of you at this time. If you are choosing to not be on the websites and be informed about all that is going on across the world with the matter of CSA, SA, friend and worker abuse both male and female, etc. you should reconsider. Being ignorant (when it is all at your fingertips) and YOUR INACTIVITY to be an honest and upright leader is making a choice. God is depending on you in your position, for the people who are looking up to you and you are leading them astray in your condoning of the ongoing illegal activities in the area you are considered to be responsible for. All this will pass someday but you will have to answer to a much greater judge than any earthly judge.

II Thes. 2: 8-12
“And then shall that Wicked be revealed, whom the Lord shall consume with the spirit of his mouth, and shall destroy with the brightness of his coming: even him, whose coming is after the working of Satan with all power and signs and lying wonders, and with all deceivableness of unrighteousness in them that perish; because they received not the love of the truth, that they might be saved. AND FOR THIS CAUSE GOD SHALL SEND THEM STRONG DELUSION, THAT THEY SHOULD BELIEVE A LIE: that they all might be damned who believed not the truth but had pleasure in unrighteousness.”

Once the investigation in this particular case and then as more is revealed about James S. and Mark M. in Illinois, that they too are sexual predators and allowed in fellowship with ones who could become a victim, I do not know how you cannot see. Your resistance is not of God. Satan is wanting to tear it all apart and he is succeeding through the worker’s prideful resistance to the plea of those who are seeing the light. By calling Chief Shumate you did your due diligence in saying you did the mandatory reporting but that is not where your responsibility stops.

I pray God will shake you awake to see the light He is wanting to shine and clear the darkness. I don’t know if you have to ‘report’ to Ray Hoffmann or get approval but your real higher up is God – get into a place and listen to Him PLEASE. We all know God is doing a worldwide cleansing – be a part of His solution, resist the devil, let God use you to shine the light on all the darkness and evil things going on.

I am praying for all of the workers to stop thinking about the natural side of things and just lean in to God and listen to Him and only Him!

If you do want to have a conversation, it will be on a recorded line, or you can email me back.
The only real action you need to do is the following:

ACTION ITEMS EXPECTED FROM MATT AS ILLINOIS/INDIANA OVERSEER:

  1. Add my email as a blind copy on the email that you send to the workers regarding Harold Brown – wording of this email is critical which is why I provided you with Craig’s email on my first communication to you. If you do not have a zero tolerance policy then you can take that out, but I would sure hope you think about that if you do. I expect this email to be sent to your staff by Thursday, June 22 and your staff to have distributed to their field no later than Friday, June 23.
  2. Send me an email of written confirmation that Harold has been advised he cannot attend a meeting anywhere – no matter the location and that this is not a temporary thing – it is indefinite.

Praying God gives you the strength to do the right thing.
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It was shared privately with me that Matt sent an email to the field Harold is in, and, it appeared on the email, that it was sent to all of the Illinois workers. As of this writing and my knowledge, the communication HAS NOT been forwarded on from the workers to the friends in their fields.

Below are two communications Matt had Dana Jacobsen send; sent out to select few…. From my knowledge, only to the people in the field where Harold resides.

Even though the salutation is to Friends in both Illinois and Indiana, other contacts I have, have not confirmed receipt of this communication being forwarded from their workers.


Begin forwarded message:

From: Dana Jacobsen
Date: June 17, 2023 at 9:56:58 AM CDT
To: undisclosed-recipients:;
Subject: CSA Update

Dear Friends in Illinois and Indiana,

We know it is very needful to communicate with you on the current Child Sexual Abuse and Sexual Assault crisis. This is a difficult situation, but respectful, open and honest communication is required. We feel deeply for any victims of sexual assault. We want to emphasize, that there are resources available, that can help you. Two sources are stopitnow.org and rainn.org.

Regarding reporting, if you live in Indiana, please report any suspected abuse of a child at (800) 800-5556. If you live in Illinois, and you suspect the abuse of a child, please call (800) 252-2873 and report it. As mandated reporters, we will report to these hotlines as well, when we have reasonable cause to suspect the abuse of a child.

If you have been abused in the past, as a child or as an adult, please contact law enforcement where the abuse happened. In sexual abuse cases that are from the past, we are continuing to find, that it is imperative that the victim reports, in order to prosecute a sexual predator. We hope this direct approach will help us all move forward in the right direction.

We have been working with professionals on how to lawfully, morally and ethically deal with all the complexities included in this. We are pursuing more professional assistance as well, as we realize the scope of this is beyond the qualifications of most of us. We will continue to communicate to the churches, any additional information needed in order to deal with this in an appropriate manner.

In the mean time, please work with us by studying the documents that were sent to you in May. If you haven’t already, please take MinistrySafe Awareness Training. Parents, please take MinistrySafe Parent Training. If you need help locating and accessing MinistrySafe Awareness Training or MinistrySafe Parent Training, please let us know. An understanding of safe boundaries for everyone, an awareness of signs of sexual abuse, and an understanding of reporting responsibilities is very important for all. We really need the help of each of you right now.

With sincere care,

The Illinois / Indiana Staff


The following is the second communication from Matt: to my knowledge based on my connections, this communication has not been forwarded by workers in other fields to the friends in their fields.


Begin forwarded message:

From: Matthew Jensen
Date: June 22, 2023 at 1:24:18 PM CDT
To: Judy Bixby , Sharon Carroll , Kenion Coleman , Gloria Lorraine Edwards , Ardith Ellingson , Abigail Erickson , Dana Jacobsen , Peggy Jansen , Ethan Jekel , Leah Klepzig , Jon Knochenmus , Kevin Naillieux , Janet Nicol , Scott Potter , Loren Quick , Sharon Rostad , Janine Spieth , Roberta Stipp , Rose Taplin , Brian Wagler , Kristina Wagler
Subject: Update from Matthew Jensen

Dear Friends,
I need to inform you, that there are abuse allegations against Harold Brown, which are currently under investigation by law enforcement. If anyone has any information to share with law enforcement, you can contact the Illinois State Police Patrol Troop 6, at (217) 786-6677.

The safety of meetings is of paramount importance. So as a precaution, Harold Brown will not be physically attending any meeting, until more is known.

Matthew Jensen


Following is my email to all Illinois workers Sunday, June 25, 2023 – it accidentally was not sent anonymous. The above content was attached to the email to the workers so they are aware of what has transpired to-date.


Dear Workers,

I apologize it is necessary for me to remain anonymous at this time. I have been in communication with Jon K. since the beginning of June. I am not sure why Matt had Jon reach out to me but I am thankful for Jon’s kindness and verbal understanding when we spoke. Matt and Jon are on this email and there are others on here that likely will figure out who I am. If anyone feels the need to make my identity public, then so be it. God knows the motive of each heart.

It is very disturbing to me that Matt Jensen, as overseer in Illinois/Indiana has chosen to not communicate with you and ENFORCE that a communication MUST go out to all friends from workers (not elders) regarding sexual predators. This communication must go out from workers to all friends to have a hope that our fellowship can continue to be led by God. It should not be led by man, any man.

I am begging you to forward the email Matt sent Thursday, June 22 about Harold Brown to all the friends in your field.

I am attaching my story and all of the email communications I have had with Matt so you are aware of all that has transpired. It is very important that you read this so you can see directly for yourself what has been communicated to and from Matt. You may have been led to believe that I am the only one,or that it was a very long time ago etc. but a lot more has come out already, victims are connecting and more will be made known soon about Harold Brown that is abuse of others and it would be good if you are prepared for this. I suspect Matt may advise you not to read the attachment but that would be only if he is wanting to hide something from you. It is only my story and my emails to and from him. The only email I received FROM him was asking for my phone number.

I pray you will do the right thing and please let the friends know. This is a time of cleansing and it will bring all closer to God. The more we fight against the truth coming out and being dealt with, the more we are giving Satan the power.
I pray God will lead you through all these troubled waters we are in and that we can all just be closer to Him.

Thank you so much for the life you give. Please press into God’s word and let him guide you through this.
Thank you in advance for sending out the communication.
I greatly appreciate a response back that you received this and have forwarded to your field.

PS: Dana and Abigail – I know your field has received the email so you obviously aren’t expected to resend it. My prayers are with you. I am so sorry for the pain this has likely caused you.

Reflections on the fallout in advocating for victims of sexual harassment

D. Beth Laswell Boelter

My letter sent today to Barry Barkley, Ray Hoffmann, Lyle Schober, Duane Hopkins, Jim Price, and Bruce Shaw.


My heart has been so moved to write to you, some 14 years after we experienced the “calling” to advocate for a young, single woman in our area, who cautiously shared with me the experience of sexual harassment she had recently suffered, with Leslie White. Some of you would have received my letter of concern, and request that Leslie be removed from the work, until further details could be determined, back in 2009. That letter went unanswered, except for Jim Price. Jim’s statement was simply that Leslie liked to acknowledge women’s beauty, as a compliment, but he was not aware of any situations that caused undue concern, in fact, all he had spoken with were of the agreement that Leslie presented no issues of concern.

As scripture dictates, upon hearing the full story from the victim, we immediately got in touch with you, Barry, and along with a witness (Chicago elder) met in our home, around the dining table with Tim and I, The Victim, a Chicago elder, Leslie White and Barry Barkley.

Leslie’s first words upon entering our home were, “is this a jury, and what are the charges?” There had been no communication on our part except with Barry, as to the deep concern we had for what had transpired in conversation with the victim. How was it that Leslie’s first comment was “what were the charges?” Was he aware of something that had transpired between he and the victim that could be considered worth a jury? Or with someone else?

After beginning with a prayer, Barry asked that each of the two share their accounts.

To explain the setting, the purpose for which Leslie had invited The Victim to join him and his companion for dinner (Jan 2009) was that he was going to give her the opportunity to return to meetings, and have a part, following her divorce several years earlier. What occurred was a denial on Leslie’s part of any of the questions the victim stated that Leslie had asked her, until he convicted himself by stating that he had in fact, asked her about orgasm. This was the proof that God had forced out of Leslie’s mouth. A question of this matter was surely proof that there had been a conversation that was way out of line, inappropriate, and leading to something far worse. Where does it ever become appropriate for the workers to ask questions of such a nature? You are not trained professionals in this area, nor should you really have any authority to speak on it, if you are living a celibate life. Yet, there seemed to be no reaction from Barry, whatsoever, as to how vile this conversation had been.

Some of those inappropriate and explicit questions can be viewed in the letter posted by Laura van Dijken, as it was detailed in one of the many excerpts from victims of Leslie’s.

I am the advocate mentioned in this victim’s excerpt. If you have not read that letter written to Leslie White, and sent 6/24/23, please refer here for a list of his questions:

1.           Did she ever have pleasure with her husband?
2.           How often did they have sex?
3.           Could her husband get an erection?
4.           Did he ejaculate?
5.           What did she do to excite him?
6.           Did she get him to masturbate?
7.           Did he think her body was attractive?
8.           Did he look at other women?
9.           In the times they did have sex, was he able to get her wet?
10.         “Any man with one red blood cell would have sex with her.” LW
11.         LW said he would have sex with her.
12.         LW said he would even marry her if he were younger.
13.         LW said she was an absolutely beautiful woman with a beautiful body.
14.         LW told her that he loved her 4 or 5 times during the evening conversation.

Leslie raised his hand to the heavens and stated, “God is my witness, I have never had a conversation with anyone about sexual matters, and I’ve never gone alone with a woman for dinner.” “I was a fool for going alone with the victim.” “I was a fool.” Within 30 minutes of that statement, however, he began talking about another couple he was counselling in IN, and mentioned the man had purchased “toys,” to which he had again contradicted what he’d just said!

Barry requested that Leslie not have any further conversations of this sort, with anyone, that he not travel alone, and that the subjects he chose to speak on in gospel meetings would not be inappropriate or ones that would make others feel uncomfortable, especially with children present.

What followed is the important part of my story and is meant to clarify that while we tried to advocate for this young woman, we were met with attitudes and opinions that I was not prepared for. I assumed that the workers response would be swift towards removing Leslie until they could make a better determination as to If there had been any other incidents like this, caring concern towards the victim, and appreciation of our efforts to protect other innocent women.

As Barry rode with my husband to the airport the next morning, he stated that it was best not to surge ahead of God in judgment. Barry told Tim that there would have to be further consideration as to whether this was a one-time occurrence, of which he stated that he knew of no other reports of this type of behavior, but if there was found to be a pattern of this behavior, then there would be a far greater matter to deal with. Barry did state, however, that he had received a report from a young sister worker that felt uncomfortable by Leslie’s conversation with her in front of younger brother workers, following the Special Meetings just recently completed in IN! We believed Barry’s statement, however, as we’d never heard of anything being reported against Leslie, or for that fact, any other of the workers!

Within weeks of the meeting in our home, my father called to tell me that his brother had just had a visit with Leslie, in Southern IN, when Leslie traveled there by himself; he was going on from there to another of my Aunt and Uncle’s, just to visit! My extended family knew nothing of this request Barry had made, nor of my involvement as an advocate for the victim, nor the sexual harassment the victim had experienced, nor did they have any reason to question why Leslie had come for an unannounced visit! My father knew more, however, as I had shared my heart with him for many hours during the months and months of this difficult experience.

About a month following our meeting, Barry called just to see how we were faring. I explained that the concern for protecting innocent victims, as well as LW’s spiritual well-being, his mental well-being, were still of greatest concern, as well as concern for future events such as this. Barry stated that it was a difficult situation because he was very familiar with both parties, and he didn’t believe either one to be purposefully speaking untruths, however, things did not line up with their stories, “it was a gray area,” because there was no proof of anything! He stated that some people say things quickly, and forget what they have said, and that perhaps things have become enlarged in the victim’s mind. This is called intimidation, casting doubt, and minimization, which is deflecting on what really happened!

To this, I stated, “but Barry, you do recall the statement that Leslie made, at the table, which was a confession of his behavior, don’t you?” Barry said he did not recall what I meant! I asked for permission to repeat Leslie’s statement, twice, before hesitatingly repeating what Leslie had said regarding orgasm. Barry said, “I had forgotten that.” This was the most incriminating and defining statement of the entire conversation that night. How could it have been forgotten?

Before anyone questions how I have recall of specific statements, I will add that every conversation I had with anyone during this timeframe, in regards to this subject, I was taking notes. I have documented records with dates!

Barry mentioned that they had met with two additional Senior male workers very recently, to discuss the situation, of which they agreed that Leslie should be carefully observed for any out of line discussions, in meetings, or with women, but especially not being left alone. I then reminded him of that request he had made in our home, and told him that Leslie was not following those orders, because I’d been made aware of his visits in IN to my relatives! Barry finished our conversation by saying that he would rather err on the side of being too slow to make the next move, rather than acting swiftly. Had this incriminating statement even been relayed to the other brothers?

The next 6 months were consumed with emails from Bruce Shaw, first wanting us to meet with 2 additional workers and the victim, which was then canceled because Barry had told him it would be worthless, a useless “he said, she said,” meeting like the last one! And, because I felt such an urgency for this matter, as Leslie continued to preach in gospel meetings, visit in homes, travel alone and with a co-worker, it seemed that nothing had changed! The victim was in touch with Barry, pleading that something more be done. She relayed to me his comments: It seemed as if the only way he would believe there were others harmed by Leslie was to give the names of others that the victim had had conversations with, to prove that this was not an isolated event. Barry again reiterated that he would not “surge ahead of God.” He stated that he didn’t think there was a problem with Leslie. When she asked what Barry was planning to do, he stated that he was choosing to do nothing! The victim then told Barry that she felt sure that Leslie would do it again, and if he did, the responsibility would then be with Barry for doing nothing. Barry ended the conversation by stating, “Just remember, you’ll suffer the consequences for every choice you make. If I remove or rebuke a brother, I suffer the consequences for that.” Does this not imply that Barry is more concerned about Leslie White than any of his victims!

Here’s where we began to realize that some unexpected things were happening, due to our continued involvement! I became aware that our names had been removed from the general friends’ email list. Our names were missing! Not that we would have even known we weren’t getting emails, but friends in the meeting realized that we had been left off the list, and thought it was just a simple mistake. This is called ex-communication, and shunning. And why, because I would not bury my head nor promise not to mention it again, as Bruce had requested!

I did not irresponsibly send emails to everyone I knew, in fact, I said nothing to any of those I continued to meet with on Sundays and Wednesdays, following the initial one-on-one meeting I had with each of the families, just to make them aware of the situation and what we felt moved to do.

I voiced my concern to Duane Hopkins via phone call, and two emails. I was told to leave it to the workers, and that trusting them would bring peace, rather than the emotional upset I was seeing my children and myself experience because of the dire circumstances we were facing in being called “troublemakers, unforgiving, hard-hearted, and being involved in issues that were not ours to be involved with.” I was also told by Duane that it was NOT a practice to move workers from place to place, after incidences like this, or worse! We know differently and have evidence of workers consistently being moved to another state when accusations have been made so they can remain unaddressed and unresolved. Duane also mentioned that in a recent workers meeting in TN, Leslie had been put on “probation.” He was to be watched for anything that was out of line, and he had promised to never do it again. Was this relayed to other workers, though, and friends? Was anyone made aware of this probation?

I heard the statements underlined above in the Sunday meetings for 1.5 years, nearly every meeting, by about half of those present, and from workers that visited the meeting too. I drove to meeting feeling nauseous and so anxious for what might be said, and every meeting except when there were visitors, it was the same. And, I cried all the way home! Instead of feeling free to uphold the standard that should’ve been set, advocating for victims of harm, supporting those willing to take a stand against abuse and harm, I believe that every one of those people were afraid of losing their place, losing their respect by the workers, and they’d rather lose friends than speak out, so they said nothing to support us in this effort, or to call out those that were doing wrong that they themselves had previously been aware of. Perhaps they spoke of the situation among themselves, but none came back to us for further clarification.

The victim requested outside intervention, and a mediation specialist heard both parties separately, and then together for a final meeting with the victim, Leslie, Jim Price, (Colorado Overseer), acting as a witness, and the mediation specialist. Leslie again denied all that he had been accused of saying. The mediation specialist gave a clear and dire warning, that unless a system was put into place with the church making it known that reporting abuse could be done without fear of retaliation, shunning, and disbelief, abuse would continue within the ministry, and it would become difficult to stand the test of time. He asked for a written statement that this system would be put into place, which was denied, stating that only Barry Barkley could make that decision. Ministry Safe classes were suggested as a means of making the worker staff aware of boundaries, how to be respectful of those in the homes they were staying, CSA, SA, etc.

Any workers taking this class would surely have no longer been ignorant of child sexual abuse, sexual abuse, and its effects on victims, even though many workers and overseers continue to state that they’ve only begun to understand the consequences of these acts! How is this even possible? It doesn’t take a class for us to understand what is morally and criminally wrong with sexual assault, child sexual assault, sexual harassment, and rape! I want to repeat this; 14 years after Ministry Safe classes were encouraged and requested for workers to take, workers and overseers are still saying that they had no idea of the long term effects of child sexual assault!

In January, 2010, we met with Bruce Shaw and Mark Peters. After berating me that I had written and sent a letter about Leslie all over the internet, of which I did not do, (my 8-page letter was sent to three workers), Bruce said he had not read it, nor had any intention to. Bruce stated that no matter what Leslie had been accused of or convicted of, his behavior had no reflection on the ministry, or Bruce, himself, and he actually didn’t care what Leslie did! READ THAT AGAIN! We countered that statement with the belief on our part that it truly is a reflection on the ministry, and we are to be responsible for the behavior of our brothers, especially the workers who are acting as shepherds, loving and protecting the innocent sheep.

Bruce followed that by requesting that I should no longer feel free to take part in meeting, until I had sought out Leslie, forgiven him, and then and only then, could I consider having a part in meeting! I repeated his request, to be sure I had heard correctly, as I was completely stunned, and taken off guard! Removing someone from the meetings because they stand by a victim of sexual harassment is so, so wrong. Our heart and home had always been open to countless workers, friends, and those who needed a listening ear in times of hardship or times of fellowship. Not only were they punishing me for supporting a victim of sexual harassment, and trying to bring the terrible danger to light, but I was being silenced! This is ex-communication!

Tim mentioned those verses in Matt. 7 v.15, “beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep clothing but are ravening wolves…” and the real danger that we must be on guard against. Bruce became enraged at this statement, slammed his Bible shut, and stated that they were leaving! I pleaded with Bruce that we were simply quoting verses that warn us, and we should heed the warnings, but he would have no part of further conversation.

I’m stating the obvious when I say that the harm, the hurt, the distrust, the feeling of being abandoned by those you’ve spent most of your lives with, is something that cannot fully be explained unless you’ve lived it. Upon hearing of the DB case, and what became evident from those opening his laptop, and as his victims began coming forward, I immediately felt nauseous, triggered by the pain and anguish for how we’d been treated, the Victim had been disbelieved and labeled, and the anxiety, PTSD, and other feelings that came to the surface, for victims, both adults and children, of this vile behavior.

It’s obvious now that these types of abuse have been going on within the church for generations, but when you are fully aware of it, and choose to move the workers responsible to another state, or when another overseer comes to a state after the perpetrator has been moved, and then claims, “well, I wasn’t here at the time, so I really don’t know much about it,” therein lies another problem. Either you’ve been told, but it’s best to act like you haven’t been, so that you can say you didn’t really know the details, therefore not being required to get involved, OR you weren’t told, and this only lets the perpetrator continue to harm innocent souls. Neither one is acceptable. And, it sets a dangerous precedent for your female sister workers, and innocent women, men and children not knowing who to watch out for!

Fourteen years have gone by since I pleaded with you to take some action, by emailing those at the highest authority, with specific details of this entire story for Leslie and any others that were guilty of harming innocent women, men, and children. They had no place as a minister, no matter their status, spending nights in homes with young children, visiting single women, taking liberties at convention grounds, or wherever else violators seek out victims. Fourteen years, and what has happened?

To my surprise, during the early summer of 2012, I received a call from a sister worker that had been a prior victim of LW, and that was Laura. Over three hours of conversation ensued, and my heart broke for her.

When my father heard that Ray Hoffmann would be at McCordsville Convention in 2012, he sought him out. My father, who was heartbroken over what had transpired, wanted to share a little about me, as he now had become an advocate not only for those being abused, but for those who were standing up against abuse! Ray’s first comment to my father was “they’re out,” speaking of our current status in the church! To clarify, my dad stated that it was because it had been forced; that’s what happens when you tell someone they can no longer take part in meeting, and how heartbreaking that it was over standing as an advocate! We weren’t acting immorally, behaving in ways that were detrimental to the church, or anything that is generally found as reason to silence someone!

More concerning though, was his statement, “if it weren’t for this sister worker, Leslie would still be in the work.” The exact statement was also repeated to me by a couple I was in touch with who resided far from IL; this couple lived in TX, and had more than one conversation with Ray Hoffmann about this situation. Once again, did no one know what Leslie was capable of, and had done to others, or were they hiding his behavior because of fear of man, loss of position, a loss to the church membership trust, or fear that something in their past would be revealed if they spoke up about Leslie’s behavior? I’ve recently read Ray’s comments to another victim of sexual abuse when asked about what the policy will be when others come forward to report, and he said, “well, it’s tricky because a lot of times victims who come forward are mentally unstable and while we feel for them, it’s hard to know what to do.” April, 2023!

What an outrage to make such a statement! This only emphasizes the lack of knowledge, empathy and understanding of how such a traumatic event can impact a victim. There is significant data demonstrating that a victim of any form of a sexual crime can experience PTSD, suicide, self-harm, depression, etc., as a direct result of trauma. The real question that should be asked is “what happened to you,” NOT “what is wrong with you.” The saddest part is that no one will or can ever fully understand or have compassion and empathy for something they have not experienced themselves. Maybe before judgment is handed out to the victim while the perpetrator is protected, you should ask yourself, “how would I feel if this had been my experience?”

It should be understood that victims will be emotionally impacted, feel unsafe, remain in fear, have nightmares and panic attacks, engage in hypervigilance and avoidance and shut down completely in response to the trauma. Any worker who does not fully understand this should have absolutely NO access to the victim or be a part of their healing. Because any subsequent involvement in the situation only serves to increase fear, lack of safety, and lack of trust while also recreating, re-triggering and reinforcing the initial trauma for the victim, which greatly reduces opportunities for healing.

My phone continued to ring, from 2009-2012. And, I continued to receive emails, and requests to speak to other victims of Leslie White. I didn’t reach out; they found me. The questioning was nearly the same; questions that no worker has the right to ask of the sexual relationship of a couple. It was simply a way to open the door for more, and depending on the strength of his victims, they may not have welcomed his advances, but they were too weak to fight it because of the name of Leslie White, and who would ever believe them if they told what had happened! I had conversations with women from CA, GA, OH, MO, IN, and TX, all of whom were deeply concerned for the harm they had endured by Leslie White. They sought me out; I listened, I sympathized, and I encouraged them that they were worthy of better, and that they should report it.

We all know that at this point, every aspect of business, sports, religious organizations, political figures, and the media have been accused of illegal behavior towards women. Abuse of women and children is not OK, in any of these scenarios, but especially by those who are supposed to be shepherds and caretakers of the sheep; those in the ministry, and those who are acting as “administrators” of the ministry.

Hiding the facts from parents is not OK, when they’re spending nights in the homes where young children reside. Hiding the facts from sister workers is not OK when they should know to be careful around some of these predators. Hiding perpetrators and violators of women by moving them around from state to state is not OK when they only find a new territory to terrorize with their abuse. And lastly, hiding what has been going on for years, as if it’s something you’ve just become aware of seems ludicrous and unbelievable. How many innocent victims have been hurt in the 14 years since my letter, and my pleading to not only remove Leslie from the work, but any others who were predators. What hurts worse? Is it hiding the facts for fear of losing those in the fellowship, or losing those in the fellowship because you’ve been hiding the facts and haven’t been transparent as to what you’ve allowed all these years?

My father spoke to Lyle Schober at one of the last conventions he was able to attend, and he made a point to spend a few minutes talking with him about this situation. Lyle told my father that what had happened in Chicago to our family “was a tragedy, and they all knew it.” However, upon my dad’s request to bring it to light, be transparent with the friends who we’d known for many years, to the workers throughout IL, and beyond, and to those who might’ve been harmed as well, Lyle stated that “as they have all been told one thing, for us to come back now and tell them something different would cause confusion.” In other words, they had no intention to say any more; no intention to reach out to the victims of sexual harassment, no intention to reach out to the advocates who were victimized, or the children of the advocates who witnessed the “outing” of their parents because they dared stand up to behavior unbecoming of anyone, let alone those who claimed to be “servants of God.” My father’s request that Lyle Schober contact me directly went unheeded, even though he was given my email address and personal phone number.

I’ve spoken to no one about any of this from our circle of friends in fellowship since this occurred in 2009, nor have they asked. I’ve heard that it was said “we” had said none of the friends were welcome in our home. That is completely untrue; we don’t know who said that, but we did not! Choosing not to host the meeting in your home is not the same as saying “no one is welcome anymore.” Bruce Shaw was told he was not welcome, simply due to the fact that his attitude about sexual harassment and assault with regards to a worker was that it was no reflection on the ministry, or himself, and therefore, he was no longer welcome in our home. His behavior was something I’ve never witnessed in a worker. We followed scripture even in this, I Corinth. 5:11. And, Matt. 18 as we followed the course as written: Go to the violator, then go to others if the violator doesn’t hear you, then tell the church if they further persist in not hearing you. Then, don’t have fellowship with the violator.

It’s a sad state of affairs when something so morally wrong, brought to the attention of the workers, ends in those reporting or advocating, to be “cast out,” by the hierarchy. No wonder people wait 5, 10, 20, 30, or more years to report something so vile and so wrong! And, no wonder advocates are far and few between, because they know they’ll take the fall for speaking up in defense of a victim who has been harmed. We were warned! The victim warned us that we needed to be absolutely sure we were prepared for what might come, if we got involved! There was no question that it was THE ONLY RIGHT THING TO DO, REGARDLESS OF THE OUTCOME! This behavior is so far from what Jesus lived and preached; we were given minds to reason right from wrong; we were given a conscience to know right from wrong, and a mouthpiece to speak when we see something wrong. What has been the course for too many years is reprimanding, ex-communicating, shunning, and speaking ill of those people who speak out. Forgiveness seemed to be their focus, but here’s what we know about forgiveness.

Forgiveness can help free one from the control of the person who harmed you, but forgiveness doesn’t mean forgetting or excusing the harm done to you. It would seem that their thinking was, if I forgave Leslie, I would never mention it again, regardless of the fact that he was still an active worker, and going against requests by his overseer, Barry Barkley. It’s this very control and fear that keeps victims from coming forward, and silence only allows the perpetrator the freedom to continue to hurt and harm others.

For too long, victims have been forced to bury what was done to them; children of child sexual assault will never fully recover, as it will be carried with them in every aspect of their life. It is unbelievable to me that you would not realize the depth of the harm, and not have such a burning desire to make things whole, acknowledge the victims and offer support and help for their recovery, acknowledge those who’ve served as advocates for others, who also then became victimized because they would not be quiet, acknowledge the violators and remove them, protect innocent children from CSA, and acknowledge the administrative staff that have taken liberties with others, and when found out, are simply moved to another state or location, where it all begins again.

I’ve very recently been told that LW stated to an acquaintance of mine that I was “mentally unstable, and emotionally troubled, and had been all of my life,” as he was sneaking around on his own, visiting people that I might have told this story to, just to see what they would report to him. How incredibly wrong that statement is, and how slanderous. Our home was an open home for workers, friends, those going through tough times and those who were rejoicing, for Wednesday night meetings for 13 plus years, on a weekly basis, and if you were to ask anyone of those friends who knew us well, I am certain you’d hear nothing but positive things. Defaming others is just part of the “control,” in order to keep things quiet when there is danger on the forefront.

I was even told that you, Barry, had remarked to someone very close to our family, that I had “misquoted and misrepresented you,” and for that, you chose not to have further conversation with me (late 2009). Barry, you’ve known me all my life; as well as my parents and my grandparents, and have known them all to be honorable people, not afraid to show compassion to others who were less fortunate, as well as being a friend to the old and young. If we don’t understand the directive to be our brother’s keeper, to carry them when they’re unable to carry themselves, to encourage and show love regardless of status or culture, then something is severely missing from our understanding of the Bible.

What are you afraid of? Is it hiding what those in the hierarchy are aware of, because everyone has something to hide, so it’s easier to shuffle them around, and carry on, and not be truthful when hard questions are asked? NOTHING is hidden from God, and shouldn’t that be a far greater concern and motivation to do the right thing, than fear of man, fear of losing place, losing respect, losing money, losing members?

For fourteen years, we’ve lived with the realization that nothing would have been done, had it not been for the sister worker who came forward with a much more damaging experience, even though she was repeatedly disbelieved, and labeled as “troubled.” At that point, it seemed the ministry became aware that there was only one thing to do, and that was to remove Leslie White from the work, even though it seemed “forced, and unfair.” We were told by only one worker, Jeff Thayer, that they all agreed it had been handled very poorly. But, he also said he wasn’t here when it happened, and really didn’t have many details. What was the response then, when a year later, Leslie sent letters to his CO followers, and others around the country, that the case had been dropped against him re: the sister worker, and he was free to rebuild from this damaging accusation? And what am I reading now, that Leslie is participating in gospel meetings, with permission by Ray Hoffmann? And visiting in homes like nothing has happened; homes where young children reside, and homes where the husband is away at work. And they had no idea of the suffering Leslie White has caused!

You would not be aware of the mental trauma, the anxiety, the recognition that you’re not believed, the effects of “removing” someone from having a place and part in the fellowship, the confusion that enters a child’s mind as a result of watching these things transpire, when their parents have been Godly and upright people, and the end result, far too often, of wanting no ties with religion!

What I evidently didn’t make clear 14 years ago in letters with Duane Hopkins, Lyle Schober, Jim Price, and conversations with you, Barry, I’m attempting to make clear now. It’s not enough to “leave it to the workers,” because you did nothing to rectify a situation even much larger than we were aware of, in covering those who were abusing children, men and women! It’s not enough to trust that it’s in the hands of those who are responsible, and will make the right decision, because you didn’t. And what has remained is the pattern of abuse, coverups, and lack of transparency to parents, worker staff, and the church, for which you are responsible.

Once again, I’m sending my true and honest statement of what transpired here in IL, back in 2009-2012 when a senior, administrative worker took liberty to speak in a way that is deemed “sexual harassment,” with a young single woman, and close friend of ours; she requested that we stand with her to help her advocate for the wrongdoing. What occurred as a result of our speaking the truth, out of respect for victims, respect for violators who need help, and care for the church is detailed above. The policy of encouraging reporting needs to become crystal clear if people are being asked to speak out. Victim shaming is not the answer, and this is not OK!

It seems apparent at this writing that this behavior, and much that we were not aware of by many other workers throughout the USA, Canada, and beyond has been going on for years, covered for years, and left to harm countless. I’ve never been able to understand how none of the workers would take a stand with us and require that there be a change. I had no idea how dark, criminal, and vile things really were among some of those men who stood on the platform, speaking from the Bible, as they upheld a “standard” for the one true Church we were to live by, yet were living lives most of us would never dream of, behind our backs.

People are sickened, sad, had their entire foundation upended, and are counting on you to do the right thing. What are they to expect? How is it possible to right the ship with the same leadership in charge who is unwilling to listen to those begging for change; leadership that has known and covered for others for far too long!

You did not surge ahead of God, but instead, thought you could handle the abuse by Leslie White best yourselves, by waiting, and praying for direction. I find it hard to believe that God didn’t give you a little tap on the shoulder, your conscience, to pull you in the right direction, to do the right thing. Maybe you weren’t listening. I hope everyone is listening now.

Beyond saddened and concerned in Illinois, USA – Beth Laswell Boelter

Victor’s second letter to Ray Hoffmann

Ray,

I have elected to write you this follow up letter because I never want to appear to be purposely inaccurate or hurt any cause.

Since I sent you my letter, apparently there have been many phone calls between people discussing my sexual abuse as a child. I was not privy to a single one and those discussing my case were never present. I was asked to retract your and John’s name with association to it. I was also asked to retract the story about your own abuse and sharing with others. Extended family members feel these are inaccurate.

I will say that if they are, I am not above humbling myself and apologizing. I was a child. I was not present for any (if any) conversations that occurred after my abuse was brought to light. I had not heard your or John’s names (or any workers) associated with the event before the day my husband and I had been sitting at bedside with my father in December 2021. I will agree that Dad was heavily medicated at the time. He desperately wanted to speak to me about how sorry he was that he had not protected me back then. It was an extremely uncomfortable conversation. He once again asked me for deeper details. I think he sensed I was not telling him everything. Frankly, I just didn’t want to share everything at the time. I had placed that horrible time and the events that surrounded it in a vault and I just didn’t want to remove it. My husband and children were all that knew. (and later a therapist) He mentioned a few things that I have not discussed publicly to date about a couple of people I thought to be Clarence’s victims as well. (which Dad had spoken about) I have been told they were actually Clarence’s son in laws victims. Seems their family had a lot of issues. I have to trust I am being told the truth and with that being said then have to admit, Dad may have been getting people confused in his stories and comments.

I had been building some anger towards you stewing on this. I just didn’t know when or how to address it. It wasn’t until the Dean Bruer case that I decided to say my piece. I emailed you directly. I had nothing to be ashamed about or concerned that I was inaccurate at that time.

My extended family says there is no way you and John could have known because it was a “family issue.” I was in no way even remotely related to Clarence, so I don’t totally understand that blanket comment. I suppose my greatest anger, other than to Clarence, is to a family who clearly cared so little for others that they would cover for someone and allow them to harm others outside their family in the meetings. I find it especially upsetting that it was one of his very victims that made the comment. Which goes to show just how ill people are when it comes to child sexual abuse and even their response to it.

So for the sake of transparency and accuracy, I am apologizing and retracting my accusations. I, in no way, can offer any proof of anyone’s involvement. I have family who are greatly concerned about how they are being perceived within the meeting by my comments and their place within it. I am tired. I am tired of the ugliness and vitriol.

I am placing my story back in the vault, just as it had been for the past 43 years. I wish the subject had never even come up now. It seems to have just caused a big mess when all I wanted to do was get things off my chest once and for all and also help others along the way. I have made attempts to remove the story from any public or private domain.

I’m sorry for any trouble this has caused you. Feel free to share with whomever you wish.

Sincerely,

Theresa Chambers Hensley


WINGS Note: This letter replaces a letter previously posted with the author’s approval. See https://wingsfortruth.info/2023/06/20/victors-letter-to-ray-hoffman/

Craig Fulton – failure to report?

Dear all,

First and foremost, I want to warn every reader of the contents of this letter. The topic of child sexual abuse and sexual abuse, hereafter referred to as CSA and SA respectfully, will be covered. I feel that these topics are too important to ignore, however if you do not have the mental space for this right now, take a moment and look after yourself. Come back if you feel up to it at a later point, otherwise delete it.

I did not want to write this letter. I hoped that there would be no need for such a situation, however through the actions of the overseer, Craig Fulton, I feel that there is no other option. On 18/06/2023 at 20:39, I sent the following text to Craig Fulton. 


Dear Craig,

It has come to my attention that several serious issues are being ignored in Ireland within the truth. The most serious of these are your dealings with cases of sexual abuse and child sexual abuse.

As you will be aware, under the Children First Act 2015, you are a mandated reporter under section 2 and Schedule 2 paragraph 15(g): “member of the clergy (howsoever described) or pastoral care worker (howsoever described) of a church or other religious community”

The responsibility of a mandated reporter is as such:

“Mandated persons have two main legal obligations under the Children First Act 2015: 

To report harm of children, above a defined threshold, to Tusla;
To assist Tusla, if requested, in assessing a concern which has been the subject of a mandated report.” 

In Northern Ireland, under the Criminal Law Act 1967,
“Where a person has committed [a relevant offence], any other person who, knowing or believing him to be guilty of the offence or of some [other relevant offence], does without lawful authority or reasonable excuse any act with intent to impede his apprehension or prosecution, shall be guilty of an offence.” 

The law is clear. You are legally obliged to assist the law in the protection of children. This means that the moment that you hear a report of child sexual abuse, whether you believe it to be true or not, you must report it to the authorities. That I have to spell this out to you disappoints me, however you have clearly shown that you feel that the law can be ignored. Therefore, if I do not hear of reasonable evidence that you have fulfilled your legal obligations within one (1) week, I will share this message al and the context behind it with the internet, with as many friends in Ireland as possible and with as many who have left as possible. This is not an empty threat. I will do this.

Yours sincerely,

LM and JV.


The week is now up. Craig has unfortunately not provided reasonable evidence that he has reported known evidence to the appropriate authorities, nor have I heard reports of his actions in attempting the aforementioned task. I will therefore be true to my word and give the context of this message to you.

To the best of my knowledge, Craig Fulton, having received from an alleged perpetrator a spoken declaration of guilt, declined to give a statement to the local authorities about said evidence and has allowed the alleged perpetrator to attend local missions and bible studies.

Having heard of a further alleged perpetrator, Craig did not fulfil his responsibility as a mandated reporter to bring this to local authorities. This alleged perpetrator has had no consequences and is still allowed to attend all gatherings.

When John Johnston was removed from the work due to at least two allegations of abuse, there was no communication surrounding the reasons why this happened. This has meant that some people supporting John may have been put at risk through a lack of open and honest communication from those in responsible positions. John is also, as an alleged perpetrator, still permitted to attend all gatherings.

John Gunn, accused of allegations of abuse in Spain and Chile, was turned away from Carrick convention last week when some friends heard of the allegations from those close to a victim and approached Craig to request that he not be allowed to attend the convention. Craig agreed, being in the presence of 5 other individuals and John Gunn was turned away. No communication surrounding his absences was provided during the rest of the convention. Further sources determined that there were plans to send John Gunn to Chile for special meetings earlier in the year, however those in Chile refused to allow John Gunn back. It is therefore likely that Craig has known about this situation for an extended period of time.

In general, Craig and other workers on the Island of Ireland have been allowing alleged perpetrators to continue their lives with little to no consequence. When alleged perpetrators have been discovered, there has been little to no communication surrounding the issues, at the most, the individual has just been removed without further comment. This is unacceptable. Hiding those accused of CSA and SA, is allowing those individuals to have access to the vulnerable, creating the potential for more abuse.

Yours sincerely,

LM and JV

Merlin Affleck apology to friends and workers

(Note: Revised apology below: June 23, 2023)

June 19, 2023

Dear friends and fellow workers,

I want to extend a personal apology to each along with this updated Child Safe Policy. A while ago I was encouraged to seek out some professional / professing help to address the Child Safe Abuse (CSA) issues that have come to light in recent times. Three couples were chosen to help, and their dedication and professionalism have taken a heavy load off me. Recently 13 couples representing all fields in BC attended a Zoom session to review and critique the CSA policy. Stemming from this meeting, further constructive edits were made. This document was then reviewed by a CSA legal specialist for accuracy and legal compliance. Now we would like each elder to distribute a copy of the Child Safe Policy to each member attending the church in their home.

In hindsight I realize more than ever that I was in over my head and floundering as I was trying to understand and get up to speed with CSA. I do want to apologize to victims amongst us for my lack of understanding and the additional pain that this has caused them. I truly am sorry. The Ministry Safe Course we all took in 2021 was an eye opener, but that was just the beginning. I want to say “thank you” to those who have constructively reached out to help myself and others in the ministry who are coming from a background of zero understanding of CSA to become more aware and educated regarding the damage abuse does to little lives and the long-lasting effects that result.

Moving forward I do feel we are in a much stronger position to deal with CSA appropriately. Some of the new tools at our disposal are:

  • Clearer guidelines, education, and awareness that past generations did not have. Recently, it was wonderful to see the response to an apology from the BC ministry to an older couple who felt betrayed in the past. She was able to die with peace in her heart and he is presently attending meetings again. We want to recognize and apologize for any other historical cases in BC.
  • We understand that good victim therapy is expensive. We’d like to encourage victims from CSA to seek this help and If the CSA came from the BC ministry we’d like to offer to help with these costs if possible. Please feel free to bring these concerns to us for consideration.
  • Our professing /professional advisory panel (similar to Acts 6) has kindly offered to help us navigate through CSA issues. I hope we all can appreciate their efforts and sacrifice helping us find a way through these issues in a more united way. We are aware that our enemy’s most effective tool is the wedge- creating divisiveness.
  • Communication will be better going forward. We need to accept the fact that most communication will end up on social media but despite this we will endeavor to send out little updates more regularly to keep us all on the same page regarding things relevant to BC.
  • Recently a person shared their story of coming ‘full circle,’ giving God the glory for a power beyond human strength to forgive and love those who at one time had been abusive. Isn’t this the power that our Master displayed at the cross as He was being abused sexually, verbally, physically, and emotionally, and then uttering the words “Father forgive them for they know not what they do”. This allowed Him to slip into eternity with a free spirit. We don’t want to overlook this most powerful tool that is at the disposal of every true child of God. This victim also stated that convention memories were the 5 most wonderful days of each year free from abuse. Going forward with more awareness and better tools, conventions can be an even safer memory maker for our youth.

Thank you for your patience in these stormy waters and I hope I can regain your trust going forward. I do love this Kingdom and especially the youth in it and pledge to do whatever is best for the Kingdom.

Your brother in Christ,

Merlin

REVISED APOLOGY June 23,2023

June 23, 2023
Dear friends and fellow workers,
I want to extend a personal apology to each along with this Child Safe Policy. I have been becoming more aware and educated regarding the damage abuse does to little lives and the long-lasting effects that result.

In hindsight I realize more than ever that I was in over my head and floundering as I was trying to understand and get up to speed with CSA (Child Sexual Abuse). I do want to apologize to the victims amongst us for my lack of understanding and the additional pain that this has caused them. I truly am sorry. The Ministry Safe Course we all took in 2021 was an eye-opener, but that was just the beginning. I want to say “thank you” to those who have constructively reached out to help me and others in the ministry who are coming from a background of zero understanding of CSA.

Now we would like each elder to distribute a copy of the Child Safe Policy to each member attending the church in their home. To address the Child Sexual Abuse (CSA) issues that have come to light in recent times, I was encouraged to seek out some professional/professing help. Three couples (similar to Acts 6) were chosen to help us and their dedication and professionalism has taken a huge load off me. Recently 13 couples representing all fields in BC attended a Zoom session to review and critique the CSA policy. Stemming from this meeting, further constructive edits were made. The policy was then reviewed by 2 lawyers and a CSA professional to ensure the children are protected and our policy is in legal compliance.

Moving forward: we are in a much stronger position to deal with CSA appropriately with more awareness and better tools:

  • We want to recognize and apologize for historical cases in BC. Recently, it was wonderful to see the response to an apology from the BC ministry to an older couple who felt betrayed in the past. She was able to die with peace in her heart and he is presently attending meetings again.
  • Clearer guidelines, education, and awareness that past generations did not have. I hope we all can work together to find a way through these issues in a more united way. We are aware that our enemy’s most effective tool is wedge-creating divisiveness.
  • We understand that good victim therapy is expensive. We’d like to encourage victims from CSA to seek this help and if the CSA came from the BC ministry we’d like to offer to help with these costs if possible. Please feel free to bring these concerns to us for consideration.
  • To help us navigate through CSA issues, communication will be better going forward. We need to accept the fact that most communication will end up on social media but despite this, we will endeavour to send out little updates more regularly to keep us all on the same page regarding things relevant to BC.
  • Making conventions a safe memory maker for our youth. A victim stated that convention memories were the 5 most wonderful days of each year free from abuse.

This morning I read over the story of the man who was stripped and wounded and left half dead (Luke 10:30-35). Hopefully going forward I have learned a little more about compassion from victims who have shared their stories and instead of walking past without understanding I will have a toolbox with some oil (comfort) and wine (disinfectant for bitterness) and love to bind up wounds.

We are more thankful than ever for our innkeepers (elders & wives) who can offer rest and safety and a place of healing for the victims amongst us.

Thank you for your patience in these stormy waters and I hope I can regain your trust going forward. I do love this Kingdom and especially the youth in it and pledge to do whatever is best for the Kingdom.

Your brother in Christ,

Merlin

Rob Newman letter to friends June 2023

20 June 2023 Update

Greetings–

We intended to get weekly updates posted here in this folder, so our apologies since this hasn’t always happened – we’ve just been fully occupied with travel, visits and communications.

Glad to say our friends who are psychologists, clinical social workers and professional counselors who have made themselves available to assist in finding help, now have their website up and active: https://dev.resourcesforhealing.org/home We appreciate the care and help represented by their efforts and sacrifice to reach out and make themselves available. We have also been reaching out to known victims to see if there are ways we can help them receive therapy, if needed. We invite any victims to be in touch.

In the last couple weeks we have worked at addressing some new CSA allegations that have been brought to our attention. All of these have been asked to not attend any meetings until risk is assessed and appropriate measures are taken:

  • Gilbert Smith, an allegation from when he was in the work about 20 years ago was sent to us, he is going through the professional risk evaluation process, as mentioned in the Child Safe Policy document (here in this folder, and sent out to everyone a few weeks ago).
  • Rodney Loera, several allegations from 30-40 years ago when he was in the work in Mexico and Central America have come to light, he also is beginning the risk evaluation process with a professional.
  • Manny Delacruz, there have been some behavioral questions and his testimony at Casa Grande convention raised alarms and precipitated a CSA report by a concerned person. Language and misunderstanding have been an added complication. All of his children (a daughter and three sons) are focusing on helping Manny strictly address issues while they await the CSA report outcome.
  • Joe Schoen, two allegations have recently surfaced from some 20 years ago when he was in the work, he is beginning the risk evaluation process.

Through the past little while we have felt His help and presence near and some scriptures have become more real and meaningful. Maybe we can share a couple here:

  • Nahum 1 – this whole chapter tells of God taking vengeance, even mentioning Him being furious. We know that nothing at all escapes His knowing, and everything is within His power: woe be us if we feel we can hide anything from Him. In His own time and way He does cleanse His kingdom, on many levels. Problems do happen, but an important test of our faith is whether we will follow Jesus in how we react and respond to problems. Nahum 1:3 “… the Lord has His way in the whirlwind and the storm”– it is amazing how God is working purposefully and carefully in what we may perceive as ‘chaos.’ May our faith make it possible for Him to include us in the solution that honors Him. Also Nahum 1:7 “… He knoweth them that trust in Him.” It’s wonderful when we honor Him by trusting His plan and timing.
    The resurrection belongs to Him– the power that does the glorious when there seems to be no hope.
  • 1Corinthians 1:19-31 – especially v23, God’s way is a stumblingblock and foolishness to the logic and reason of men– how Jesus got the victory through the crucifixion. As He said in Matthew 18, humility is crucial– we honor God by being quiet within, asking Him to show us His way, and allowing Him to give us the grace to walk with Him in His way– then, v31, the glory goes to the Lord where it belongs. As we cling to the Rock, the stability and peace of the Rock becomes ours and we reflect the same precious peace to the world around us.

In closing, we want to again thank all of you who have selflessly helped us with the current issues, decisions and needs. We also thank all of you for your care and prayers, knowing our Father is watching over all things.

With care,

Rob and helpers

Lack of transparency in BC

Dear Merlin,

This letter is also addressed to Reid, Paul and Joshua.

It has come to our attention that you are spreading the word that we are speaking to people to gather support for us having lost our Sunday meeting and asking them to speak up on our behalf. THIS IS NOT TRUE. We have NOT requested of ONE single person to reach out to any one of you with respect to our meeting being “taken away”. We encourage you to ask anyone that have written you about the removal of our meeting whether we had asked them to do so.

We continue with our Sunday meeting. Nothing to take away. We enjoy it when others attend our Sunday meeting on an ad-hoc basis to add to our number.

Note the following for the record:

  1. With respect to our Sunday meeting, we have not gone looking for support from any person whatsoever.
  2. Many people have however heard of the decision regarding our meeting and have reached out to US. Many of those people we have never even met before. Most of those people have shared with us their frustrations with the workers in BC and the mishandling of issues (see 3 below).
  3. We have communicated the following concerns to you (as have many others):
    • Handling of CSA issues and suppression of transparency. (Why is there still no general notification of current CSA investigations in BC in order that victims be made aware. Also there has been no notification of members stepping down from Merlin’s CSA committee, why not?);
    • The unacceptable treatment, silencing and bullying of sister workers;
    • Overseers and workers’ abuse of power;
    • Suggested changes to restore trust and a healthy foundation for our fellowship.
  4. We have communicated with friends regarding the manner in which you, as ministers in a position of trust have been conducting yourselves. One such issue is bold faced lying and below is a recent example:
    • Reid and Joshua, you have spoken to people this past week suggesting that you have been trying to arrange to meet with us and that we have not accepted this – HOW do you manage to lie so blatantly? You know that after Gospel meeting when we greeted you at the door that we INVITED you to come to our place. Specifically, you Joshua. We were genuinely pleased to see you when you took Paul’s place with Reid and we specifically said to you after your first Gospel meeting “thank you for a Gospel message today and please come and visit us anytime”. You know that we invited you directly more than once and you, Reid, know and heard that invitation after Gospel meeting. You have our cell phone numbers and email addresses and we have not received a single request to meet.
    • If anyone of you did send requests to meet with us and if we declined or if you did not receive a reply from us: please forward the time-stamped communication to us and everyone on this letter.

There have been meetings with concerned friends in BC where you are KNOWN to have LIED and be very clear: several people present in those meetings KNOW the truth. How do you expect the friends in our fellowship to have any trust in the ministry when you yourselves don’t follow the most basic Doctrine?

Merlin, we understand that communication was sent to elders recently regarding baptism arrangements. While we had heard of it, we never received any details. We then contacted Reid by text to ask if there were recent communications and were told there was communication about baptism, but without any details. We still have not received details from Reid or anyone else. This does beg the question whether you, Merlin, Paul, Joshua and Reid consider our children as unworthy of baptism? Interestingly, our text to Reid was recent and further evidence of how there has been ample opportunity for Reid and Joshua to make contact to meet with us.

Kind regards

Jeremy and Leonie Tomlinson


WINGS Note: See more at

https://wingsfortruth.info/2023/05/11/suggestions-to-address-serious-concerns-about-the-ministry/

https://wingsfortruth.info/2023/04/26/letter-from-friends-to-overseer-merlin-affleck-and-vancouver-workers/

Letter from BC worker Edward Emberton

June 2023

It has become clear that questions are being asked about how I, Edward Emberton, came to be in the work in Canada.

First, I would like to make it clear that I was not transferred to Canada from England, as is often the case when immoral or illegal behavior has come to light. There has never been any suggestion of anything like this in my case.

As many of you already know, I spent 5 years in the work in England, and was asked to go to Switzerland as a temporary exchange for Rheinhard Wicks. This was intended to be for 1 year but became 2, and was a transformative part of my experience. I began to love my place in the work while I was in Switzerland, and a part of my heart is still there. Unfortunately, during my time there, I became ill with Lyme disease, having been bitten by a tick a few months before going. I returned to England early, and it was soon clear that I must take a break from the work, and I’m grateful to this day for one of the friends who told me about Lyme disease, which made it possible to get treatment. It was 4½ years before my health was back to a point that I could think about the work again.

I was very aware when I arrived in Canada that speaking openly about the following few years would create judgements toward me, and create more questions and division, rather than encouraging unity. It seemed best that we would speak openly about my experience if it would be beneficial to the fellowship, and otherwise not. I feel the time has come to speak openly, and I hope no one feels mislead by this approach. I have been grateful to be judged not by my past but by my present amongst you. Very few know my full story. I have never said anything untrue but we have felt it better to not include all details until now.

After 4½ years I reached the point that I felt strong enough to be in the work again, and was grateful to be given the chance of this in England. This was a very positive time, and confirmed to me that my calling was to the work. During the next 18 months I became aware of a case of Child Sexual Abuse in my field, and when the victim, aged 18, confided in me and confirmed what one of the friends had suggested to me and my co-worker, it was clear to me that she was speaking the truth. I approached my overseer and explained what I had seen and heard, and asked for his advice on how to proceed. I was very disappointed to be told “We have experience with this girl, and she is a liar” which we have since heard is a common response. I was told to cut off all contact with her as it was inappropriate that I, a single male, would be in communication with a young female on such matters. I relied that I would be very happy to cut off all contact, as soon as he would arrange someone more appropriate than myself to give her the help and support that she needed, and that I had promised to give her. He refused to do this, and two weeks later it was clear that he would ask me to step back from the work. I was very grateful for the offer of Shaun Buckley to intercede for me, as we had been co-workers for a short time before this, but I knew that no one was able to help me now. Two weeks later I was dismissed form the work, and the victim was cut off from fellowship, leaving her father to be in full fellowship. He was made an elder in due course, but got offended and died outside of fellowship.

The opportunity soon arose for me to go and work as an electrician in Switzerland, and I was happy to accept this, partly because I felt it would be helpful for both sides to have some distance. I worked there for about 7 years before I felt the door was closing. During this time I was determined to find a solution, and not just ‘run away’ as others had done in the past, and so returned to England for conventions and Special Meetings when I had the opportunity. Twice I begged the overseer for a solution, but he refused. The third request for a visit was refused, and so I wrote a few times, which only made him angry. I understood at that point there could never be resolution during his lifetime, and found this is a very dark place, when all hope is lost.

I came to Canada for my brother’s wedding and met with Shaun en route for a few days. We had a good visit and I shared my feelings that Switzerland was closing down for me, and that it was time to move on, although I was unsure where to. BC felt right to me, and Shaun encouraged me to explore the options. After the wedding, I returned to convention in Switzerland where the message was repeated many times, “Lift up your eyes and move on” like Abraham did. I felt this was a very clear message to me, and so started exploring the options. I soon found that a job offer would be needed, although this proved difficult, but then I flew over for Shaun’s funeral, and returned with two job offers. The rest is history, as they say!

I feel that my time in BC has been a time of healing for the hurt caused in England, which I am grateful for. I felt confident that CSA would be dealt with very differently than in England, and was very happy to hear it spoke on during our virtual convention in 2021. Ī welcomed the training we did, and would welcome more. Unfortunately, this ha snot brought a change of attitude here, and I have been very distressed to find a similar approach to the one I saw in England. I have asked for updates to the cases here in BC but it hasn’t happened, all our information on local cases comes from hearsay, which has weighed heavily on me recently, but I am encouraged to hear of some places where this is no longer the case. I yearn for the day that survivors in BC get the recognition and help that they deserve.

I believe that the cleansing that is now beginning will be positive for our fellowship despite being painful, and hope for a brighter future. I also understand that releasing this account of my experiences will cause some to view me in a negative light, and this could mean that it is best for me to step back from the work completely. If it seems appropriate, I would very much like to be active again one day, my intention has always been to be a blessing as a servant to the lambs and the sheep of His fold, and I hope I can continue to be this, in whatever capacity. My choice would have been to leave the past behind, but recent events and rumours force us to be more transparent. Our recent study in Proverbs 21:3 states “To do justice and judgement is more acceptable to the LORD than sacrifice” which seems very relevant – my sacrifice in the work means nothing if it is facilitating abuse of whatever kind.

I am grateful for the help of my Heavenly Father through each stage of my experiences, and feel this has forced me to grow and mature in ways that could not have been possible otherwise. I am also grateful for those I have grown close to in each place where I have labored. I hope this growth can be put to good use.


WINGS Note: Edward is currently on the “Care of health” list by choice

To the workers advocating for change

WINGS Note: This is a letter from an online network of friends who are encouraging workers to start and continue taking action for a safer fellowship.

From the authoring group: “This letter, published on June 17, was written by a young woman in our group to express our support and encouragement for workers advocating for change within the fellowship. The bullet points in the letter were formulated using input from members of the Connected and Concerned Friends group, our worldwide group of 1500+ members concerned about the prevalence of child sexual abuse and sexual abuse within the fellowship. We created our platform on June 4th, 2023 as a way to keep people updated, connected, having important conversations, and working toward positive change. In all of this, the goal is to uphold Jesus, and support the healthy examination of traditions.”

Connected and Concerned Friends https://connected-and-concerned-friends.mn.co/

We see you. We appreciate you. We care for you. We are so thankful for your continuous effort to restore trust and to create a safer community.

We can’t imagine how tremendously difficult it is for you right now. You’re hearing the desperate cries just as we are. You’re processing the layers of betrayal and distrust just as we are. You’re realizing how you’ve contributed to a silent and unsafe community, just as we are.

You’re receiving pressure to stand up, both from the crying souls around you and from within. There seems to be an expectation for you to suddenly get everything perfectly right without proper training. While you’re still hurting. Sometimes your heartfelt, best-intentioned words are attacked, your intentions misinterpreted. We understand how much that must hurt. We see you trying, and for that we are so thankful. We want to encourage you to keep fighting, keep working for justice, for safety, for the victim-survivors, for the women, children, and men in the fellowship. It’s ok if it’s not perfect from the first try. We often learn best from the act of trying. We promise to do our best to be gracious and understanding with our feedback.

While all of this is going on, you’re expected to maintain your position and routine in the ministry – continuing to visit homes, continuing gospel meetings and conventions, continuing to “be there” for everyone around you – while you’re struggling to process everything yourself. The ministry you’ve given your life to has betrayed you. Your companions, your overseers, those you’ve looked to for guidance, those you’ve confided in. And yet, you continue to have a love for the ministry, a love for souls. And that’s why you keep fighting. You know God is still reigning, that God is righteous in His judgment and cares so deeply for the victim-survivors you’re fighting for.

We see you facilitating the difficult conversations with the workers around you. We see you listening to the stories of the victim-survivors. We see you, all hours of the day, holding space and time for the needs of the people around you. We see you taking action and implementing change.

You’re not sure how much longer your boss is going to be in his position. And yet you feel compelled to continue under his direction. There are so many conflicting commands surrounding you: from the concerned, from the victim-survivors, from the young workers, from the head workers, from those asking you to be silent. We encourage you to continue to listen to the voice that matters the most: our Heavenly Father’s. And while we long to be an encouragement and support to you, we know that He is the greatest source of comfort, hope, and support for you, as well as us.

These are a few of the things we’ve been sharing in the “Encouraging Thoughts” portion of our group:

  • “There is no place where earth’s sorrows are more felt than up in heaven” (hymn #54)
  • Something good and pure will come from this. God will not be mocked. Stand true and faithful.
  • Samuel listened to God. He heard the hard things and then he ACTED with the support of God. He stayed true during the hard times and God gave the victory.
  • I’m thankful God can give us comfort even while we fight the battle. We may not have peace yet but God can keep us in the fight.
  • The church is the plant, and God is the gardener, and He is using His loppers right now. This is what we must be willing for if we desire to remain His church.
  • 2 Corinthians 1 gives such a beautiful illustration of what a healthy relationship between the church and our workers ought to be.
  • I Peter 1:3-9
  • Hymn #6 (When I survey the wondrous cross)
  • Hymn #69 (To whom, Lord, shall we go?)
  • Jesus is the only way, only truth, only light, only Son of God, only hope, only Word and only Redeemer! A church isn’t the basis of Salvation. Rules aren’t the basis of Salvation. Only Jesus is!
  • A study of God using women: Rahab, Deborah & Jael, Miriam, Lydia, Phoebe, Priscilla
  • God sees you. God knows exactly where you are. You may feel lost, but God has found you. He is already all around you.
  • Psalms 147:3
  • “Sometimes when you’re in a dark place you think you’ve been buried, but you’ve actually been planted.”
  • The children of Israel trembled before Goliath, with none willing to go before him. It took a lad, with a sling and a stone to bring down a giant. David’s brother was angry, questioning his motive in coming to the battle. Saul was willing to give David armor, but unwilling to face the giant himself.
  • 2 Corinthians 4:16
  • 2 Timothy 3
  • Psalms 46:10
  • “If He brought you to it, He’ll bring you through it.”
  • “And though my lot be cast today, somewhere I would not choose, help me to know that in thy will, I shall but gain not lose” (hymn #259)
  • Luke 16:10-11

And here are some words of encouragement that folks from our group (a group of nearly 1400 friends supporting you) have written specifically for you:

  • Perfect love casts out fear.
  • God is working with us ❤️ thank you
  • Truth sets us free. Any delay in removing predators implies guilt or complicity. Survivors have waited decades, years to feel safe in fellowship. Thank you for ensuring meetings are a refuge, not a torture chamber.
  • Seek Jesus alone. Step out in faith with him.
  • Jesus doesn’t change, but we must. For all of these years, we have not. Seems like we’ve focused more on Paul than on Jesus (more on appearance than the weightier matters). We completely support all of your efforts to be more like Jesus. We are trying to do the same.
  • “In the warfare we are waging For the truth and for the right, When the conflict fierce is raging With the powers of the night, God needs workers brave and true; May He, then, depend on you?” (hymn #372) Thank you for being among “The Brave and the True.”

We are here, “waiting in the wings” to help with anything we possibly can. To support you, to work with you, to facilitate the needed changes within our fellowship. Please don’t hesitate to reach out with anything we can do to be of help for the greater work currently happening.

Finally, if you are not ok, that is ok. There is support available, and it is ok to seek out that support.

With a unified purpose for truth, honesty, and God’s will to be done,

Connected & Concerned Friends